I don't care that I never lived anything that life has to offer. I will never ever be happy. I've started to deeply hate my parents for keeping me alive. I can't stand it anymore.
SN is very easily available, but I need to find a way to get it without my parents knowledge, which is almost impossible.
Be very careful I also had lots of fear when I ordered my rope but I managed to receive it without any knowledge from my family. But lets say they would found it couldn't you say its just a super fancy special salt which makes the food taste better? Something like that as a lie only in case they find out
I won't try to dissuade you, but I'll correct one thing you said and give true advice.
First of all, you can't say that you'll "never ever be happy" unless you can see the future. There's always hope that things will turn around for you. Instead, say: "I feel like I'll never be happy again." That's a true statement, but that doesn't mean that your feeling is true.
Secondly, if you do something impulsive, chances are that you'll end up surviving in an even worse state than you are in now. The only easily-accessible method that I can think of would be hanging, which takes thirty minutes to be surefire. If your parents surveil you like you've said before, they'd probably find, resuscitate, and save you, which would leave you with severe and irreversible health issues. Also, ordering things is risky because your family—even if you're certain that they will be preoccupied—always have a nonzero chance to intercept it or find it before you will. If that happens, they'll probably throw you away in a ward.
First of all, you can't say that you'll "never ever be happy" unless you can see the future. There's always hope that things will turn around for you. Instead, say: "I feel like I'll never be happy again." That's a true statement, but that doesn't mean that your feeling is true.
Secondly, if you do something impulsive, chances are that you'll end up surviving in an even worse state than you are in now. The only easily-accessible method that I can think of would be hanging, which takes thirty minutes to be surefire. If your parents surveil you like you've said before, they'd probably find, resuscitate, and save you, which would leave you with severe and irreversible health issues. Also, ordering things is risky because your family—even if you're certain that they will be preoccupied—always have a nonzero chance to intercept it or find it before you will. If that happens, they'll probably throw you away in a ward.
Well what should I say to this? I waited 2 years and no happiness appeared. People like you should accept that in some cases when a person lost all hopes that he won't be happy again. Its actually such a terrible lie. Who are you to know that the future holds happiness for someone? Maybe the person lost all hopes and is in a situation where he has no happiness left just like it it in my case so yes in my life there will be no happiness its over i will kill myself soon
Is two years a lifetime? Unless you're currently dead while I'm writing this, it's not!
Did I ever say that I know that the future holds happiness for them, or anyone for that matter? No. I said that there's "always hope," not that "you will be happy again." You sound emotional, so maybe you typed without completely comprehending my message? I'm sorry to hear that you've found no happiness for two years, but that doesn't mean that you CAN'T find happiness in your future. (Notice the word "can't?" I'm not saying that you will find happiness, simply that it's possible, which you can't logically deny).
Also, just because you've lost all hope and happiness doesn't mean that you can't have hope or happiness ever again. That's like saying that, since the odds of winning the lottery (happiness) are low, you winning the lottery is impossible; sure, maybe you won't—and you definitely won't if you never buy a ticket in the first place (CTB)—but on the other hand, it's not impossible for you to win the lottery (especially not with a lot of tickets (time)). Get what I'm trying to say?
And the good news is that happiness is a lot easier to come across than a winning lottery ticket.
I won't try to tell you what to do, but I hope that you can rationalize that all hope is not lost.
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In my case all hope is lost and there's only one logical thing I could do and that is to end an unhappy, sad, painful and tragic life instead of being tortured day after day again and again.
Whatever, man. If you're going to be obstinate against simple logic, I won't waste my time. As the old adage goes: "you can bring a horse to water, but you can't make it drink."
Yeah don't waste your time and please fuck off don't think you're smart with telling bullshit. Every person can make their own judgment on their situation. Everyone can tell by himself he sees no hope and wanna die its idiots like you spreading unrealistic hope go maybe work for the suicide hotline they need more like you there
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