Venting I NEED to die. Not want.

[uselessmanz]

I am so scared that my CTB attempt coming up will not work. I have failed multiple times using Lorazepam and weed distillate vape to over come SI but it did not work. Next is alcohol. If that doesnt work, I dont know what the fuck to do. I am less scared of dying and more scared of staying alive long enough for my family environment to come crashing down straight on my head as if it is all my fault. Wether its my fault or not is irrelevant. I literally hope this is all a simulation and another version of me is waiting in another reality with an entire loving family. I hope CTB will show me that this reality is all just a learning reality simulation. Besides, Elon literally said there is a one in a billion chance we are NOT in a simulation.

Come on alcohol, dont fail me.

If I stay alive, my anger will boil over and i will attack the vulnerable people in my life. This is a natural path that I can foresee. Human nature. I dont want to be known as a horrendous bully on top of all the things I already am.

I dont want to go to fucken prison and be an even bigger burden on my community as well as my family. Please let me die.

 

[eggsausagerice]

Besides, Elon literally said there is a one in a billion chance we are NOT in a simulation.

why are you using elon as a source? lol. what method do you plan on doing?

 

[EmptyBottle]

I am so scared that my CTB attempt coming up will not work. I have failed multiple times using Lorazepam and weed distillate vape to over come SI but it did not work. Next is alcohol.

Unfortunately, those seem to be recipes for disaster (liver/kidney damage, etc)... letting you know early to reduce the risk of adverse experiences.

 

[uselessmanz]

why are you using elon as a source? lol. what method do you plan on doing?

His explanation for why we are in a simulation makes sense. I plan on CTB via jumping from 160ft onto concrete.

Unfortunately, those seem to be recipes for disaster (liver/kidney damage, etc)... letting you know early to reduce the risk of adverse experiences.

I won't be combining them lol, I will be using only alcohol next time.

 

[escape_from_hell]

Alcohol alone?
That's gonna be a rough way to go. I haven't seen it discussed much but maybe if you drink absolutely 0 water and just keep immediately drinking every time you come to a bit from passing out and throwing up and so forth.
But if you are super drunk, you may give in and have food, water, sleep as the urge hits and your inhibitions are low. Thus prolonging everything and making intervention likely.

Or are you thinking more along the lines of drunk in body of water, out in the cold or other such precarious conditions?
I hate the cold but have heard several stories of drunks passing in extreme temperatures. To me it sounds appealing if I were able to go out already very drunk to the point my senses are blunted and am able to pass out quickly and freeze in a drunken sleep.
But it's hard to predict what one might do in that situation. With low inhibition the body may take over the hammered brain and seek warmth from low inhibition.

 

[uselessmanz]

Alcohol alone?
That's gonna be a rough way to go. I haven't seen it discussed much but maybe if you drink absolutely 0 water and just keep immediately drinking every time you come to a bit from passing out and throwing up and so forth.
But if you are super drunk, you may give in and have food, water, sleep as the urge hits and your inhibitions are low. Thus prolonging everything and making intervention likely.

Or are you thinking more along the lines of drunk in body of water, out in the cold or other such precarious conditions?
I hate the cold but have heard several stories of drunks passing in extreme temperatures. To me it sounds appealing if I were able to go out already very drunk to the point my senses are blunted and am able to pass out quickly and freeze in a drunken sleep.
But it's hard to predict what one might do in that situation. With low inhibition the body may take over the hammered brain and seek warmth from low inhibition.

My plan is to sit on a railing and get drunk. Once I'm out of it, just fall backwards 160 feet onto a polycarbonate roof thingy

My plan is to sit on a railing and get drunk. Once I'm out of it, just fall backwards 160 feet onto a polycarbonate roof thingy

I only need the alcohol to beat my SI