I need someone who understands how much Autism sucks

[SomewhereAlongThe]

I have autism and bipolar. My autism has been a struggle my entire life. Bright lights are painful, loud noises are painful, and I like being isolated away from people. When I'm around people I feel excluded or like I'm missing something that would make them want to talk to me. I try to suck up, but people notice that and don't like it. I've had no special interest I could dedicate my life to, and I've received no "perk" of being autistic. I've been weirdly obsessive my entire life and it ruins my life. I'm not a creative artist, and I'm not intelligent. I unfortunately didn't get my parent's genes for mathematics or art. This is the reason I want to ctb, because there's nothing to me. There's no talent or passion I have to dedicate myself to. I'm just stuck being an Autistic blob.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I have autism and I understand how much it sucks. In my case, I've been "blessed" with how I'm good at mathematics but, aside from that, autism has caused me nothing but disadvantages. It made my life difficult and it also makes me trying to ctb much more difficult. I hate being autistic, this is pure misery

 

[sximii]

I have autism and bpd. I guess autism made me smart and creative, I like that aspect but it's also really difficult to live with. Interacting with people is impossible. Normal sounds feel 10x louder for me. I hate the fact that I hate being touched if that makes sense. I definitely get it