Help I need help/tips on how to cope with my severe chronic depression

[Anon7075]

Hello! For the past 4 years i have been mostly lurking on this forum trying to find a way to properly kill myself. This year alone i had multiple suicidal attempts, one of which ended up in a 2 week long involuntary hospitalization. My circumstances drastically changed for the better after my hospitalization and for the first time since my depression started at the age of 8/9 i had a drastic change in life for the better and i finally have time to recover and face head on with my mental illness, but the problem is my depression is mostly treatment resistant and even though my life has been sorted out for the most part i still suffer from severe chronic depression. I can't die, im only in my early 20s and for the sake of the people that love me and for the sake of my own future i need to keep on living. I am asking anyone who has dealt with severe depression or any other debilitating mental illness, how do you cope? How do you live your everyday lives with these debilitating illnesses? I want to continue living and i need some tips on how to cope,live and thrive with my severely debilitating chronic depression. I have just exited one of the lowest points of my life and im pleading all of you how to continue even though everyday im suicidal, even though everyday i feel like shit, even though meds dont work, even though every single day is a brutal battlefield with my depression. I want/need to keep on fighting and any suggestions are welcome. I have pleaded for help to my loved ones, to my doctors, but i feel like im pleading to a brick wall. Please for the love of everything, i need any help that i can get and i want to know what helped all of you to continue even amidst your brutal hardships.

TLDR; I have debilitating chronic severe depression and im not ready to give up. Everything that i tried didn't work so i need suggestions. Thanks!

 

[timf]

You might try experimenting with things outside of what you might expect. For example, exercise. Going for a morning walk or run might break things up such that settling into a depressive mood might be a little more difficult. Other physical activities such as tennis or gym work might be beneficial.

You might want to take a look at nutrition and supplementation. Considering how depleted our food supply is in micro-nutrients, taking a vitamin pill with minerals could be advantageous.

Some Youtube videos might be useful (many are not). If someone tried something and found it worked, it could be something you might want to try.

You could also try some social activity such as a self-help group, volunteer work, church group, or even a library book club.

 

[LostLily]

find sometime to occupy your time. Whether it be hanging out with friends, reading , excercise…etc

I try to get out of the house at least once a month just so I have something to look forward to.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

I'm still struggling and I'm not some expert but:

EXERCISE. Working out as hard as I can first thing in the morning is a shield against the day's misery. I'm vulnerable pre-workout. I enjoy sipping coffee, watching the news, and doing the NYT puzzles. But then it's oatmeal, poop, and go. Can't wait.

Stay busy. Have projects. Accept the fact that your labor might not be worth very much per hour. Who cares. Any clean warm bed is as good as a 5 star hotel. A bowl of rice isn't much different from high cuisine. I'm pretty much on my next point...

...get your head out the clouds. Don't be envious of celebrities. 99.9% of people are nobodies. There are cool people you can be friends with everywhere. There are attractive women everywhere. (Or whatever you're into, I'm a straight guy.)

There is always satisfaction in accomplishing SOMETHING. You're not gonna be a movie star. Do your own work. Not religious (yet?) but the Bible is right. Adam's curse is to work. Look at all the abuse Christ took. Ecce homo. Behold [the] man. No living without pain.

Sorry to ramble, I worked out A LOT today and feel pretty high off it.