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sillybillygo
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- Aug 9, 2021
- 22
I'm really desperate to die. I have a mental illness that ruined my life and I am in so much debt, facing jail time for a "threat" I have no memory making to my ex, and I have no money. I can barely take care of myself and I tried hanging myself with my only resource a scarf on my doorknob but when convulsions came in, my head lifted. I tried drinking myself to death but just ended up throwing up. I don't want to be alive but I can't find any methods that will work! Even if I go to jail, I still have a bunch of student loans from school when I was a little better but ended up dropping out before I could finish and I ruined my credit at 18. I also have a speeding ticket that might send me back to jail but the traffic courts are closed because of the virus. I am about to literally lose everything if I don't die soon. My life is really hopeless and I'm only 23. Does anyone know any cheap, reliable methods? Should I keep trying with my scarf on the doorknob? My SI keeps kicking in and I'm really scared. I researched poisoning but it seems like just a trip to the ER and if I end up handicapped it's the biggest problem. I really need to die as soon as possible. I don't know about jumping and my car doesn't work and I haven't been able to keep insurance on it and I'm about to lose it too. I'm staying in apartments with my mom and it's any day before it's too late to take my life and it's all going downhill so fast.