I NEED BENZOS I AM GOING TO DIE NITROGEN

[SadCryingBunny]

Hi, I Please need the names of extra medications to suppress my nervous system or to severely make me drowsy or sleepy. I also want any pain medication that will ease the suffocating chest feeling from the nitrogen gas when I'm unconscious and dying. I will take all of them at once. I have a link that teaches how to access and get certain medications from the dark web. I will try to access the dark web for the first time once I've gotten the names of these items. My only concern is most are illegal to source here in Australia without authority or prescription and if I'm caught, I risk charges, prison time and will just worsen my desire to want to die. I don't want to serve a prison time. I've never been convicted of any charges. I'm already highly suicidal with knife cuts to my arm and soon stabs to my thigh and I just want to EXIT. I've been praying to the Universe power/God to make a way out for me and that I succeed in dying. Therefor I'm happy to travel to another country to source them and ctb there so long as I don't face the same legal issues there. I am going to die soon via 99.9% Nitrogen Gas with an Exit bag & heavy overdose on 7 Zolpidem sleeping pills with line holding the neck seal open. I will have my final meal (warm large pizza + Pepsi) right before I swallow all 7 pills. However I feel a over dose on Zolpidem isn't enough and I may wake up. I need something that completely SHUTS ME DOWN. I've heard of Benzos. I'm happy to pay whatever is required to get it. I don't need the money anymore as I'll be dead. I need something to shut me down and I will let my setup do the rest. I will turn the 6L gas tank open when I start to feel very heavily sleepy. My flow rate is pre set to a determined flow rate of 40L give or take a minute from my scuba regulator and will last me 30 minutes. I've tried lower flow rates and I feel I need a little more flow rate as I feel like I am suffocating in the bag due to a higher/faster build up of co2 from my exhale than the nitrogen flowing in. When I start to feel sleepy, I will go to sleep/lose consciousness, my hand will let go of the line pulling open the neck seal and it will close with a small gap just for the exhaust. Nitrogen Gas will build up in the bag and I hope to be dead in 10 minutes ASAP without pain. I want it to be a permanent black out, Eternally if there is no God. My hands will be restrained unable to reach the bag with the line setup at the correct length once my hands let go, so it will be impossible to rip off due to panic and the gas bottle will be restrained in a horizontal position to my body so it doesn't get knocked over or I roll around. A 1m hose will be secured to the exit bag with the excess hose clipped to my neck as an anchor so the exit bag is effectively secure. If there is zero f*ck ups, This is a VIP 100% guaranteed ticket to pass. If you have any remarks/suggestions, they would be highly appreciated as I want to minimise suffering and maximise success so I ain't living on permanent disability due to brain damage. This is exactly how I will ctb soon once I've found a far away location as I'm afraid of the autopsy. I am 28 soon, wether it is now or later, this is my chosen method as it's the least painful. I don't want to die a slow death in a hospital surrounded by strangers when I'm older or be put in a nursing home. I am a Hardcore Antinatalist and will never bring a child in this disgusting existence wether willingly or put myself in a situation which could lead to it being accidental. I have tried losing consciousness to Nitrogen without any medication assistance and I JUST CAN NOT TOLERATE THE GAS. The only way is to be unconscious from the beginning of the nitrogen inhalation process. End of Story. I've tried everything, I can't handle it. I am willing to travel overseas to any country to get my hands on whatever medication or substance that will assist me and ctb. I will also have to find a welding shop there to source the nitrogen gas bottle. All the best and I'll be on the other side in a few months to a year once I get my escape setup ready. I'm on disability job seeker payments and ain't working, so just waiting to source all parts to ctb.

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

Why not just try to get them prescribed? They are VERY effective, and honestly, you would only need ONE. One single benzo. You could try asking your doctor for just a few for emergencies, you could ask for a referral to a psychiatrist who could prescribe them, or you could possibly try to get a few by going to the ER saying you think you're having a panic attack. If they only give you one, pretend to take it & save it for later.
As for the Zolpidem, I know someone told you that they aren't very strong, but since you haven't taken them before & have no tolerance, they should be plenty strong, 7 is just beyond, there's really no need to take 7. I don't think Zolpidem is supposed to be mixed with benzos, though. But really, one benzo would be all you'd need.

 

[SadCryingBunny]

Why not just try to get them prescribed? They are VERY effective, and honestly, you would only need ONE. One single benzo. You could try asking your doctor for just a few for emergencies, you could ask for a referral to a psychiatrist who could prescribe them, or you could possibly try to get a few by going to the ER saying you think you're having a panic attack. If they only give you one, pretend to take it & save it for later.
As for the Zolpidem, I know someone told you that they aren't very strong, but since you haven't taken them before & have no tolerance, they should be plenty strong, 7 is just beyond, there's really no need to take 7. I don't think Zolpidem is supposed to be mixed with benzos, though. But really, one benzo would be all you'd need.

As I said I need be knocked out. I'm told by my GP Zolpidem is very strong and will put me to sleep quickly. I need something stronger in addition. I want out.

Why not just try to get them prescribed? They are VERY effective, and honestly, you would only need ONE. One single benzo. You could try asking your doctor for just a few for emergencies, you could ask for a referral to a psychiatrist who could prescribe them, or you could possibly try to get a few by going to the ER saying you think you're having a panic attack. If they only give you one, pretend to take it & save it for later.
As for the Zolpidem, I know someone told you that they aren't very strong, but since you haven't taken them before & have no tolerance, they should be plenty strong, 7 is just beyond, there's really no need to take 7. I don't think Zolpidem is supposed to be mixed with benzos, though. But really, one benzo would be all you'd need.

I will try getting Benzos from a GP. However is it not possible to get it from the darknet as my GP may be suspicious as they already know I'm a suicidal crazed individual and may use it an attempt? They might only be willing to prescribe alternatives, what others should I ask for? Regarding alternative medications that will induce the strongest sleep or nervous system shutdown, any recommendations? It's very simple request from this group. I need the assistance of medications and good bye. I'm currently practicing going to sleep with the exit bag on my head but very loose and open to being accustomed sleeping in a clear turkey bag. I'm preparing.

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

As I said I need be knocked out. I'm told by my GP Zolpidem is very strong and will put me to sleep quickly. I need something stronger in addition. I want out.

I will try getting Benzos from a GP. However is it not possible to get it from the darknet as my GP may be suspicious as they already know I'm a suicidal crazed individual and may use it an attempt? They might only be willing to prescribe alternatives, what others should I ask for?

Idk about the dark net or alternatives, but maybe someone else will. If I were going to try to get one or two from a doctor (really that is all you'd need) I might try saying something like I have an intense fear of flying but I have to take a flight soon to visit a sick family member, and I just want one or two pills to keep me calm so I don't freak out and get everyone around me freaked out on my flight.

 

[SadCryingBunny]

Idk about the dark net or alternatives, but maybe someone else will. If I were going to try to get one or two from a doctor (really that is all you'd need) I might try saying something like I have an intense fear of flying but I have to take a flight soon to visit a sick family member, and I just want one or two pills to keep me calm so I don't freak out and get everyone around me freaked out on my flight.

Ok thank you, can any other similar medication work or does it have to be Benzos ? Just in case they don't specifically prescribe it.