Venting I miss A

[highjumping]

Today is a hard day again, I can't escape the memory of A, I miss him so fucking much.
I want to CTB just so I can see him again, he will never come back here so what is the point of staying alive? He was the only one who understood me, I'm in so much pain.
It's been almost 3 years now but it still hurts like the day I found out. Why am I even here on this disgusting earth when I could be with him?
We aren't made for this world.

 

[The anhedonic one]

I recently lost someone very special too. She was also suicidal like me.
She CTB without warning.
She was also the only person in the world I could truly relate to irl.
I know I will never get over it and will join her soon.
It sounds like you had that same kind of very deep bond with A.
Something like that is hard to find,
that true, deep connection.
I don't know what to say to you because I don't think any words can help with something like this.
So sorry you are going through this. It's unbearably sad to go through.

 

[highjumping]

I recently lost someone very special too. She was also suicidal like me.
She CTB without warning.
She was also the only person in the world I could truly relate to irl.
I know I will never get over it and will join her soon.
It sounds like you had that same kind of very deep bond with A.
Something like that is hard to find,
that true, deep connection.
I don't know what to say to you because I don't think any words can help with something like this.
So sorry you are going through this. It's unbearably sad to go through.

It hurts so incredibly much, i hope we can see our friends soon again and find peace, i'm so sorry you have to feel this too.

 

[FuneralCry]

It must be painful what you are going through, existence certainly is so cruel and of course there's too much suffering in existing. I hope that you eventually find the peace you search for.

 

[meowmeowkitty]

i'm really sorry about everything you're going through, loosing someone is horrible especially when ur dealing with the persuasion of death. i hope you can find peace in your future wether youre with us here or with your friend in the great beyond. stay well my friend :)

 

[wanderingspirit]

Today is a hard day again, I can't escape the memory of A, I miss him so fucking much.
I want to CTB just so I can see him again, he will never come back here so what is the point of staying alive? He was the only one who understood me, I'm in so much pain.
It's been almost 3 years now but it still hurts like the day I found out. Why am I even here on this disgusting earth when I could be with him?
We aren't made for this world.

Look i hate to break it to you but even if you success ctb you won't see him again for 2 reasons most likely there is no where else or simply you won't be in the same place with him however i know people who suffered like you from attachment issues ( including myself) and i believe i can help you recover ( isn't it with trying at least? ) I'm trying to give you a hand and maybe change your perception of life if you want to simply reply to me and i will do what i can to help you see the bright side once again and if you don't i wish you find your peace here or anywhere else

 

[highjumping]

Look i hate to break it to you but even if you success ctb you won't see him again for 2 reasons most likely there is no where else or simply you won't be in the same place with him however i know people who suffered like you from attachment issues ( including myself) and i believe i can help you recover ( isn't it with trying at least? ) I'm trying to give you a hand and maybe change your perception of life if you want to simply reply to me and i will do what i can to help you see the bright side once again and if you don't i wish you find your peace here or anywhere else

you can pm me anytime

 

[outrider567]

Today is a hard day again, I can't escape the memory of A, I miss him so fucking much.
I want to CTB just so I can see him again, he will never come back here so what is the point of staying alive? He was the only one who understood me, I'm in so much pain.
It's been almost 3 years now but it still hurts like the day I found out. Why am I even here on this disgusting earth when I could be with him?
We aren't made for this world.

I miss her so fucking much too, can't stand my life now

 

[wanderingspirit]

you can pm me anytime

As you can notice I'm a new member here and it says i can't start a new conversation is there any option i have to turn on to be able to pm you or i have to be an older member?

 

[highjumping]

As you can notice I'm a new member here and it says i can't start a new conversation is there any option i have to turn on to be able to pm you or i have to be an older member?

you have make a few posts i think, idk how many tho, i'm sorry

 

[wanderingspirit]

you have make a few posts i think, idk how many tho, i'm sorry

I can't describe the level of disappointment I'm currently feeling however I'm trying to post as many as i can i will make sure to come back to you hopefully before it's too late if i fail to do so i wish you find peace here or anywhere else and if you commit what I'm afraid of at least not experience pain and get out painless

 

[highjumping]

I can't describe the level of disappointment I'm currently feeling however I'm trying to post as many as i can i will make sure to come back to you hopefully before it's too late if i fail to do so i wish you find peace here or anywhere else and if you commit what I'm afraid of at least not experience pain and get out painless

it's fine, it doesn't take long to be able to pm people, thank you tho