Yeah, life seems cruel & somehow sentient enough to play a cruel joke on us specifically, giving us each our own specific unique predicaments/problems.
I'm not a materialistic person at all (in fact, I despise/hate money, even though I still live quite a privileged & comfortable life, admittedly). But what I really need is a companionship, a relationship, a deep mutual bond, & love. But, somehow, life (reality) just destroy & crush all my hopes, wishes, prayers, dreams, expectations, & even happiness left! I don't know whether it's god, universe, karma, fate/destiny, or just random luck/chances. But, it's just really frustrating, & deeply depressing for me (especially when seeing/watching other people are in a 'happy relationships', 'happy couple', 'happily in love', etc2). Life is a cruel joke (& it's not even a joke/comedy for me. It's a tragedy. An absurd, ridiculous, chaotic, senseless, stupid, limiting, frustrating, & depressing existence).
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