Jon Arbuckle
Aspiring Corpse
- Jul 23, 2024
- 55
I've been talking a lot about wanting to CTB via firearm, but I feel like I can't take the wait anymore, everything I need to do (wait until my family's guard is down, visit a shooting range so I get at least a little experience with using a firearm etc etc) feels like it could take ages and I don't know if I have the strength to wait that long. I think on Monday I'm going to drive to my community college, find the tallest building I can, and just jump. the only problem is I'm pretty scared of heights and I feel the SI is going to kick in pretty hard, which is exactly why I wanted to CTB with a gun, just seemed like the quickest method. I'm just rambling at this point. I want the guilt to end. I want the feelings of inadequacy to end.