Discussion I may go today

[SleepingBliss]

I have been wanting to take my sn next week as there are a few birthdays coming up and I didn't want to spoil them, however now that I have my sn and antiemetics I feel I can't wait. I don't have benzos and I rarely eat so fasting isn't an issue as I've already not eaten for a week and a half. I don't want to rush and mess it up or get cold feet, but I feel if I over plan it then anxiety will start to hit me and I'll never go through with it so I am likely going into the woods today to take my sn.

I will buy two bottles of water from a shop and mix my sn into them. I'll ingest one and wait with music. During this time I will send my goodbyes but let people know I have already taken it and I am in the middle of nowhere so there isn't a chance to find me or convince me otherwise.

If/when I do this, does anyone have any advice or comments on this as I know it's not the most planned out, I had hoped to record it or something to allow research for the forum but I truly feel I can't wait.

 

[ilied]

I just hope that if you go through with it its a complete success and you no longer have to hurt anymore.
much love, regardless may eternal peace be yours.

 

[Mebius]

dont rush it, get benzos and propanolol, its supposed to peaceful, not fearful and agonizing

 

[SleepingBliss]

dont rush it, get benzos and propanolol, its supposed to peaceful, not fearful and agonizing

I have propranolol, but I will never get benzos, I don't have the money to buy from online and I feel bad lying to get controlled drugs

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best.

 

[etherealspring]

i wish you the best and i hope you find peace, good luck <3

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I hope you find peace! Good luck!