Venting i literally am too braindead to do anything

[babyharpseal]

excluding the few good days i had in january, i havent been able to do my hobbies in over a year. theyre too exhausting. even if i make it as simple and low-effort as possible, its still extremely draining n stressful to make myself do them. and i dont have any passion or desire for them left.

ive mostly quit social media bc i was too sensitive to the arguing n negative posts. but unfortunately that was what i used to fill my days with. now i just have a twitter acc to see funny animals, which fills maybe 30min a day, and after that ive totally run out of entertainment.

for the past couple weeks id been reading to fill my time, but it became more n more tiring. my brain would get so fatigued i couldnt focus on the page or process the words, and i had to read for less time each day. and now i just cant do it. i mustve exhausted myself with my incredibly strenuous day

today ive spent most of the time just sitting here staring at nothing, bc its honestly less boring n tiring than trying to do anything. doesnt use up brain power. i just sit here like a fucking moron with whatever random thoughts pass thru my head. and i sleep abt 12hrs every day bc it means less time being tortured by the endless boredom

 

[DeIetedUser4739]

I lay in bed for about 18hrs a day for this same reason, when I'm awake I read forums for a couple hours which I still find boring so end up walking around for an hour to tire myself out so I can go back to bed again. I don't know how long I can live like this.

 

[pulleditnearlyoff]

I feel you. Just rotting away in bed every day.

 

[etherealspring]

yea i relate. all i do is rot in bed and sleep. somehow doing anything else always feels like way too much for me and i get overwhelmed all the time

 

[lizzywizzy09]

I keep hoping if I just lay dormant long enough, I'll die but nope.