Oh thank you, like Smila and some others here I believe, many of us came across Inmendham videos and they just clicked for some reason. I've found some sort of comfort in the pessimistic for a long time. I am still researching various things in spirituality and even the occult, but I almost would rather it not be true, it's so much more complicated to worry about upsetting a deity or deities and having to always swear allegiance and loyalty and so on. I don't know. I just have tried to be more good than bad to people, but eh I don't know *shakes my head* Maybe it's our fate, maybe it's our choice, maybe some of both *shrugs*
Whatever you decide, I wish you peace and no more suffering <3 Life is a cruel, harsh mistress to many it would seem.