arrythmia
Member
- Jan 27, 2026
- 22
English isn't my first language so excuse my bad English.
Last week, i was going to ctb. I felt that I'm already dead so i decided to visit the cemetery before i end it. I wanted to see the dead and to talk to them. As i was going to leave i saw an empty grave so i decided to lay down inside it. I stayed inside for like 10 minutes. I felt fear and peace at the same time. It's like a kid crying and afraid while his mother holds him and cuddles him. I ended up not ctbing that day but Ever since i feel dead, i feel as of i already passed away. I left that grave but my body is still there.
Last week, i was going to ctb. I felt that I'm already dead so i decided to visit the cemetery before i end it. I wanted to see the dead and to talk to them. As i was going to leave i saw an empty grave so i decided to lay down inside it. I stayed inside for like 10 minutes. I felt fear and peace at the same time. It's like a kid crying and afraid while his mother holds him and cuddles him. I ended up not ctbing that day but Ever since i feel dead, i feel as of i already passed away. I left that grave but my body is still there.
