Venting I keep wishing I wasn't born or for painless death

[Painless_end]

I just wish I wasn't born. I make this same post every few months because I genuinely wish I didn't exist. I don't know what I hope to achieve by talking about it but I think posting it here makes me feel validated about it.

I keep wishing I wasn't born but since that's in the past, I keep wishing for a quick painless death.

I can't bring myself to face the world I live in.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never existing at all certainly sounds like the best possibility to me, I also wish for the same thing. Having the ability to exist here certainly is such an awful thing to me, of course I always view it as being preferable to not exist as existence is just an unnecessary harm that leads to more suffering all for the sake of it. But sadly I think the option of a quick, painless death is something that is far too good to be true in such a cruel world, to me it really is horrible how we were unfairly forced into existence yet denied the option of a straightforward way to leave.