Venting I just wrote my final suicide note.

[failedmind]

I just wrote my suicide note.
In my 24 years, I've written countless suicide notes with no set plan, but this time it's real. I'm actually going to CTB in the next few months. So surreal. I feel so guilty for the hurt I'm going to cause the few people that love me. I hope in time they can forgive me. I haven't stopped crying for about an hour. It's really setting in that this is going to happen. I'll finally be free.
I feel sad and grateful. Sad for the pain I will cause but grateful that I found this site and I can CTB and leave on my own terms.
Finally.

 

[avalokitesvara]

Hugs. Sorry it has got to this point for you

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best, I hope you find the peace from suffering you search for.

 

[futurecorpse]

I've also written several suicide notes, and I intend for my most recent note to be my last. I also feel guilty about leaving certain family members behind, but I know that ctb is the right decision for me. I'm not much older than you, but I know what it's like constantly wanting to be free and finally be at peace. It makes me cry a lot too. My mind is set. Sending you hugs and I hope you get the peace you deserve

 

[failedmind]

I've also written several suicide notes, and I intend for my most recent note to be my last. I also feel guilty about leaving certain family members behind, but I know that ctb is the right decision for me. I'm not much older than you, but I know what it's like constantly wanting to be free and finally be at peace. It makes me cry a lot too. My mind is set. Sending you hugs and I hope you get the peace you deserve

Thank you for your kind words, they mean a lot to me.
Crazy how some people think CTB is the easy way out. Hardest decision ever with so many different emotions.
Sending hugs back to you

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

What a shame...most people are on the verge of hitting their prime at 24. I am so sorry your luck has dictated otherwise. I hope you have at least a couple of decent days, where good things happen to you, before you go.

 

[futurecorpse]

Thank you for your kind words, they mean a lot to me.
Crazy how some people think CTB is the easy way out. Hardest decision ever with so many different emotions.
Sending hugs back to you

Of course Definitely not easy for you and me! A lot of thought and consideration has been placed into this decision. Maybe it's easy for some people, but there are exceptions. but there are exceptions. Anyone who says it's a shame because we are still young really doesn't get it and doesn't know our whole story.

 

[failedmind]

Of course Definitely not easy for you and me! A lot of thought and consideration has been placed into this decision. Maybe it's easy for some people, but there are exceptions. Anyone who says it's a shame because we are still young really doesn't get it and doesn't know our whole story.

Yes exactly. They don't know our story.
I get told that I'm young and things will get better, and while I know they mean well, they just don't understand. I even wrote in my note that I'm aware I might miss out on things, but I'd rather miss out than keep suffering.
I'm sorry you feel this hurt too, but you've made me not feel so alone in this.

 

[needthebus]

I just wrote my suicide note.
In my 24 years, I've written countless suicide notes with no set plan, but this time it's real. I'm actually going to CTB in the next few months. So surreal. I feel so guilty for the hurt I'm going to cause the few people that love me. I hope in time they can forgive me. I haven't stopped crying for about an hour. It's really setting in that this is going to happen. I'll finally be free.
I feel sad and grateful. Sad for the pain I will cause but grateful that I found this site and I can CTB and leave on my own terms.
Finally.

I feel your genuine honesty and pain. Sending love to you. <3

It's such a hard decision and a difficult path to travel. Sending you virtual hugs.