Venting i just want to get it over with

[manic]

why is killing myself so hard? going through the motions of suicide and figuring out plans and methods is exhausting, not to mention the low success rate of most methods and risks.

 

[PF011]

You're 100% right. It's exhausting but so is choosing to stay alive and continue this miserable existence. I'm in the same boat right now. Nobody around you seems to understand and either spews meaningless, empty platitudes at you or just pretends to give a shit for a bit then goes straight back to ignoring you. It hurts. I want to get it over with too but having the most difficult time trying to figure out a high success rate method that I actually have the means to do.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand as I wish I could simply choose to just cease existing and never suffer ever again, it just feels so cruel to me how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die in peace, the fact that trying to die can go wrong is so horrific to me. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[manic]

You're 100% right. It's exhausting but so is choosing to stay alive and continue this miserable existence. I'm in the same boat right now. Nobody around you seems to understand and either spews meaningless, empty platitudes at you or just pretends to give a shit for a bit then goes straight back to ignoring you. It hurts. I want to get it over with too but having the most difficult time trying to figure out a high success rate method that I actually have the means to do.

yeah exactly its so hard to fine something that i would actually have the means and energy to go through with it- people only care abt my mental state for a bit before they just ignore me