What's the point of living this miserable fucking life? I can't cope with this anymore I'm tired of pretending I'm okay, like I'm not planning my next attempt. I'm gonna be dead soon cos fuck this life. The more I live the more I regret it, it's like a punishment. I can't be happy anymore.
I kinda hate my boyfriend but I'm stuck with him because who the fuck else would wanna be with someone like me. He's all I have really but he can just be such an arsehole sometimes. I don't know what I wanna do with my life I'm 25 and I'm just wasting it but I don't even wanna do anything but die. I thought I'd be dead at 21 but for some reason I'm still here even after my attempts. Spent nearly 2 years sectioned in a hospital and that didn't help much, apart from making me never wanna go back there.
I love my parents. I love my dog. But I just don't think I can stay any longer. I feel sorry for my parents, that they got me. Im useless and a waste of space. I'm so tempted to order SN again and no fucking around this time. Last time I didn't have any anti emetics so I didn't take my SN straight away and I got caught then sectioned. Either that or I will just hang myself.
I kinda hate my boyfriend but I'm stuck with him because who the fuck else would wanna be with someone like me. He's all I have really but he can just be such an arsehole sometimes. I don't know what I wanna do with my life I'm 25 and I'm just wasting it but I don't even wanna do anything but die. I thought I'd be dead at 21 but for some reason I'm still here even after my attempts. Spent nearly 2 years sectioned in a hospital and that didn't help much, apart from making me never wanna go back there.
I love my parents. I love my dog. But I just don't think I can stay any longer. I feel sorry for my parents, that they got me. Im useless and a waste of space. I'm so tempted to order SN again and no fucking around this time. Last time I didn't have any anti emetics so I didn't take my SN straight away and I got caught then sectioned. Either that or I will just hang myself.
