Venting i just want someone to know i tried

[igrippedthewheel]

i really tried to make the most out of what i was given and it just didn't work. it's borderline evil just to watch someone go through that and just give them vague platitudes. i don't even want to be saved anymore. how disgusting. all of the help i've been offered is tied to how many times I let someone fuck me or how many dishes I wash. i want nothing from these people anymore. i just want to die so badly but it really is 50 percent not wanting to be homeless which feels stupid but i guess it's just America. Nothing matters this message doesn't matter. I have to do it within 2 weeks while I still have a place. I'm not sleeping on the streets after everything I've already went through. Been called entitled so much in my life but I think this impossible world is entitled for expecting me to live in it without asking for help or just fucking crying.
Yes everyone that i ever talked to problems were so worse than mine, that's why they didn't help. Maybe they should CTB too instead of acting like telling their cope stories is going to make me feel better after being threatened to be robbed or my drunk mother beating me and kicking me out on the street as a child with no ID. Oh no your cousin died when you were 6 ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh but you got over it so I should definitely feel like what I'm doing is inferior. I used to love talking to everyone I see. I have no love in my heart. There's nothing left for me here. Fuck this world dude. Fuck everything.

 

[meddle]

we know, buddy. you have really tried and you are doing the best you can do in your situation. im sorry life is so cruel and unfair to you

 

[seasonsdied]

I wish finding death was easy. We never wished to be brought in this world. And it definitely hasn't been fair. Having shit parents just takes away your will to live even as an adult since you lose so many opportunities to have a decent life and when you compare your life to others you find out you should never have been born. Time to take things into your hand :)

 

[cluefixphantom]

I hope your molesters get something bad for abusing you tbh. Have you taken legal action against your parents/asked for state compensation because of the difficult situation you're in due to them (they breed and you happened to be born into that)? I would recommend considering it, even if the police and authorities might not take it seriously at first. But who knows how long that will last if more victims come together. The labor-wage-slaves and their rich employers should die early not their hosts.

In 2025, I also reported my parents, especially my father because he doesn't pay me any compensation. You have to do it several times because they always ignore or destroy the report because they support abusers. But it's important to have the damage officially recognized.