Venting i just want someone irl to understand

[willitpass]

i feel like i'm about to explode. i just want to tell everyone that i'm killing myself soon and that i want to enjoy what time i have left with them. i want to tell them how much i'm struggling. i want to tell them. but i can't. this site is nice but it's not nearly the same as the connection with people you already know. but i can't tell anyone i know. and i'm going to explode

 

[WornOutLife]

I know that feeling.
Unfortunately, if we're honest about CTB to the people surrounding us, we'll probably end up in a psych ward.
We can't even be honest in therapy!!! Life sucks.

 

[BPD Barbie]

Its a really big thing to carry around and have nobody to share it with. It takes it toll and sometimes I want to just should it from the rooftops. Have you thought about trying to write things down on paper and then destroying the paper so nobody finds it? Might be a good way to get things out of your system.

 

[willitpass]

i just want a hug and someone to tell me it'll be okay. that it's okay for me to let go