I just want N

[transgenderfailure]

I can't believe I had N a couple of years ago and let me mom flush it down the toilet cause I did not want her to worry about it any longer.

My mom is such a good person. She doesn't deserve what I am putting her through. But, I am so done, I cannot do it any longer.

Is N ever going to be an option again? I just want to go to sleep.

 

[OceanBlue]

Not likely, unless it's a legal procedure in a hospital.
I do believe that vad will be legalized, give it a few more decades.

 

[FuneralCry]

Nembutal also sounds like the best suicide method to me, I hate how it's not legalised and available at all where I live, sadly in this world there is a lack of compassion towards humans who suffer, such a peaceful death is a privilege only reserved for animals. To me it's really disgusting to deny people peaceful ways to escape from this horrific world.

 

[The anhedonic one]

N is the chosen method for almost everyone here. If I had Nembutal right now, I guarantee I wouldn't hesitate to use it.
I think the only place that you will find it now is Tijuana in Mexico, find a corrupt vet or Doctor, money talks as they say.
My original plan was to go there , yet my mental health is so bad at the moment that I can barely function.