My situation is not the same as I do have people in my life with whom I talk regularly, but still, I understand you. I used to have a LOT more, and they've all abandoned me. I'm also beginning to come to terms with the idea that they don't miss me and are okay with me not being in their lives at all. That's the hardest part for me. Even though I still have some people around me, the severe abandonment causes me to feel alone all the time. It's caused me to believe that the people who are still with me are bound to leave me at some point, and it keeps happening, slowly but surely.