I just can't afford to survive

[Manfrotto99]

To be honest, I don't want to cbt, but I don't have any options. I just cannot afford to survive in this dog eat dog world.

I can't afford a roof over my head and to live comfortably and feel safe in my home. I have a roof over my head now but it comes at a cost that I can't keep affording and I'm not safe living here, but there is nowhere else to go. I'm not young so its unrealistic to expect opportunities or changes at my age and even if they did, I'm exhausted, I'm weighed down with depression and am tierd of continously struggling. I know people survive being homeless. It would be tough, but it is a not a something I have the strength for.

If I could wave a magic wand I would have a little house in a quiet safe place, maybe in the country, with a garden and a dog. That is all I want.

But I could never afford that and with no hopes or dreams and nothing to help keep me strong anymore since my dog died, I know when the storms hit my SI will give in the next time something bad happens...and it always does. Im preparing as I want to be ready. The time is fastly approaching.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand why you'd feel so tired, it's so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[Hollowman]

Very relatable.