Venting I hope she knows.

[KattinKai!]

I hope she knows that when her beloved boyfriend dies, one day, next year, that he loved her so much. She was the only person to make him feel human and genuinely safe to open up, to genuinely feel comfortable being a man and to think about her in a future that I know I'll never have, and I would have and still would do anything to ensure she is the safest, happiest girl in the world so she doesn't have to feel the way I ever did. My dear, one day I'm going to die, and I can't tell you, but before I go, I'm going to tell you that I love you so much. I'll show you too. I'll make sure we have the best day on your birthday, before a week passes.

I hope she knows that when her beloved boyfriend dies, one day, next year, that he loved her so much. She was the only person to make him feel human and genuinely safe to open up, to genuinely feel comfortable being a man and to think about her in a future that I know I'll never have, and I would have and still would do anything to ensure she is the safest, happiest girl in the world so she doesn't have to feel the way I ever did. My dear, one day I'm going to die, and I can't tell you, but before I go, I'm going to tell you that I love you so much. I'll show you too. I'll make sure we have the best day on your birthday, before a week passes.

I'm hoping to be able to commit a month later.