Venting I hope I die before this year is over!

[dontwakemeup]

I can't stand waking up anymore! The thought of waking up again makes me sick.

I feel another attempt coming on soon, and I'm afraid of failing again. If I'm not successful, I'll be in trouble again and they will take away my medication I need. Is it worth the risk?

I'm only happy in my dreams. I don't dream that much but when I do, I just wake up crying.

For those who have ever woke up alive after an attempt, how did you feel? Did you attempt again? How long did you wait before you attempted again?

I'm so exhausted.

 

[hereornot]

I'm also happy in my dreams, including those in which people from my family appear, but in my dreams they're not as bad as they are in real life. I think they're just like I expected them to be. Like a longing for people who never existed in that way.

 

[dontwakemeup]

That's so strange to dream about a loved one and they are different in your dream. Do they ever talk you in your dreams? I'm just
asking because I always hope to dream about my mothrt

 

[hereornot]

That's so strange to dream about a loved one and they are different in your dream. Do they ever talk you in your dreams? I'm just
asking because I always hope to dream about my mothrt

The night before last I dreamed about my father, who has already died. It wasn't the first time and he never says anything in my dreams. He was nice to me, he was the only person worth staying alive for.

Last night I dreamed about my brother and my mother, who are bad people. They are alive. And in the dream they weren't bad. I think they were the way I would have liked them to be. Just good.

 

[dontwakemeup]

The night before last I dreamed about my father, who has already died. It wasn't the first time and he never says anything in my dreams. He was nice to me, he was the only person worth staying alive for.

Last night I dreamed about my brother and my mother, who are bad people. They are alive. And in the dream they weren't bad. I think they were the way I would have liked them to be. Just good.

That's very interesting. Thank you for sharing. I guess we do dream about things that are subconsciously bothering us. Least you had a break from them in your dreams. Hopefully, it's an omen that they will get better.

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand just wanting to be gone, I also hope to just never wake again, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence I see as so futile and torturous, I wish for the option to just simply die in peace and never suffer ever again. But anyway I wish you the best, I hope that you find the freedom you search for.