Hello! Sounds 100% like me and my "parents" Quick background, I was the "mistake", I was the product of a night of drinking. Now I am 64 years young and I have lived with the same way that my "parents" put my through till I was 18. They kicked me out at 18 and I NEVER heard from them again ever. Now with the background said, I believe that you have ALOT to give to yourself, friends, and the world. Hate to say this BUT get away from your mom and concentrate on yourself and your happiness and wellbeing. You are way too important to all of us here on this website to not be with us. Look at this aspect, when I found out, I am in the United States, that my "parents" both were gone, they left my younger sister 1 million and my brother 3 million and I got ZERO, and I was never happier in my life. At the time money was nothing and my happiness was everything . Please get away from your mom and take care of yourself. WE all love you too much to be tormented. Please stay safe and keep me in formed. since we have alot in common. All the best to you friend!