Discussion I have to kill myself tonight

[Ryan.s]

Yes high enough but I think the shirt part is a weak point.

Anyways good luck.

Damn dude :( what should I Usenet instead of shirts? Tying cable to that barbell is going to be tricky. And plus don't have any cables long enough:(

Damn, you ready to go, huh? Think twice about what you are doing. Maybe your problems are fixable?

I wish my friend. I wish.

 

[MsMaudlin]

Are you absolutely sure you have to do this?
We are all here for you!
If ypu do decide on that pathway, I'm sending you love and strength ❤

 

[Steamm]

can't you get a rope? would be better, I tried several times yesterdays with a belt and there's one time I felt I was about to pass out

 

[Ryan.s]

Are you absolutely sure you have to do this?
We are all here for you!
If ypu do decide on that pathway, I'm sending you love and strength ❤

I'm trying to get drunk right now so I can hang myself without the pain. I feel so lost.

can't you get a rope? would be better, I tried several times yesterdays with a belt and there's one time I felt I was about to pass out

Definitely would get a rope. Last time, family members caught me with it and freaked the fuck out.

 

[Steamm]

I was hiding a rope with a hangman's noose knot in my bathroom and my sister found it. she said nothing.

 

[Ryan.s]

I was hiding a rope with a hangman's noose knot in my bathroom and my sister found it. she said nothing.

Hahhaaaa! Dudeeeee

 

[TAW122]

I'm very sorry to hear about your suffering and ordeal. I don't have much advice to give in terms of hanging as that is not a method that I'm an expert in. However, I wish you the best and peace in whatever you decide to do.

 

[Lostandfound7]

Hey honey..that type of pain in a marriage hits different..I'm sorry..

Have u tried speaking to ur wife before u do this?

 

[itsmeagain]

I have to kill myself tonight. Everything is fucked. I hate this life, I hate myself, and have been a failure all my life. My wife keeps leaving me. I want to die. I want to die tonight but I always get up while I'm doing partial suspension hanging. What do I do? I have to die. This will be my 12th attempt tonight. I just want to die, I'm so sick of failing

Lovely darling... we've got you here. I'm so sorry that you've been going through so many attempts to escape. Your wife shouldn't be diong that to you, and you DO deserve better. PM me if you need.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

It sounds unlikely to me that this will go well. Many on here have tried very similar and just hurt themselves. I really don't think you should do this, especially if you are desperate and drinking.

 

[Ryan.s]

Hey honey..that type of pain in a marriage hits different..I'm sorry..

Have u tried speaking to ur wife before u do this?

Yes :( She just freaks out when I talk about suicide with her. I love her more than anything. I don't understand what's wrong:(

 

[Lostandfound7]

Yes :( She just freaks out when I talk about suicide with her. I love her more than anything. I don't understand what's wrong:(

So y r u leaving then honey?

R there other issues making u wanna ctb?

 

[hybridtheory]

Hi. I'm here if you need someone to talk to.
Best wishes to whatever you choose, so sorry that you're suffering.

 

[Moonstruck]

Yes :( She just freaks out when I talk about suicide with her. I love her more than anything. I don't understand what's wrong:(

My boyfriend does the same thing. He can't handle it. He tells me I should talk to a professional. I'm like dude I've TRIED. I can't talk to them about suicide they're just gonna automatically commit me.

 

[Ghost2211]

I really feel for you I can feel the pain in your writing. I'm here if you need a friend or someone to talk to. I hope you find relief in whatever way that may be.

 

[Ryan.s]

So y r u leaving then honey?

R there other issues making u wanna ctb?

Yeah, everything is wrong in life. In addition to her threats to leave me.

 

[Ghost2211]

Yeah, everything is wrong in life. In addition to her threats to leave me.

Why does she want to leave? Is it something you guys could work out in couples therapy?

 

[Lostandfound7]

Threats r just that, threats..I have threatened to leave my husband many times early in our marriage..maybe the fact that's she's STILL there means she just wants u to change in some area(s) n that she does in fact love u n doesn't wanna leave u..I've been there before..

 

[Deleted member 1465]

And if you are told by someone that they are suicidal That IS really hard for them to deal with. Even the best of people can feel out of their depth with that knowledge. It doesn't make it right to walk out on someone but I know I'd find it hard to cope if someone IRL told me that. And I'm on here.

 

[Steamm]

I'm shacking as f**k, too nervous for my end. maybe we will die in the same day ryan?

 

[Iloveyouall]

Yeah, everything is wrong in life. In addition to her threats to leave me.

I'm sorry I don't want to break your peace, so I'm going to put my message into spoiler. Maybe I'm too cautious, maybe not.

Spoiler

I don't want to make you doubt about your decision or your feelings about ctb, I don't want to make you feel guilt either but you said you love your wife. I don't know about her or why she threatens to leave you but I'm wondering if your suicide wouldn't break her or make her feel very guilty for your suicide. I don't know about your situation and I feel very sorry for what happened in your life but you said you love her more than anything.

I wish your suffering to end, no matter your choice.

 

[aukguy]

Sorry to hear your story Ryan. Also going through a rough family situation - best of luck.

 

[Ghost2211]

Thinking of you <3

 

[Donk]

can't you get a rope? would be better, I tried several times yesterdays with a belt and there's one time I felt I was about to pass out

can you show us the setup with when using a belt? always wonder how to do it with a belt.