Discussion I have to kill myself tonight

[Ryan.s]

I have to kill myself tonight. Everything is fucked. I hate this life, I hate myself, and have been a failure all my life. My wife keeps leaving me. I want to die. I want to die tonight but I always get up while I'm doing partial suspension hanging. What do I do? I have to die. This will be my 12th attempt tonight. I just want to die, I'm so sick of failing

 

[MoreThanAFeeling]

Have you tried full suspension?

 

[SugarbushMtn]

Full suspension

 

[WhyamIstillhere]

Any form of hanging takes a lot of commitment. I'd search for an easier method.

 

[Esc9434]

Sorry to hear you are going through a hard time... Dunno what to say.

Does your wife know how you feel about life? Might need to ditch her in order to lighten your load.

 

[Ryan.s]

Have you tried full suspension?

I'm 250 pounds and have no where to put the support. There's literally no support in my apartment where the rope can hang from.

 

[x-Ace-x]

Well, SN is the most popular method here. I'm sure it will be easier than hanging cause I tried it multiple times and just couldn't pass out.

 

[Sweet_Lullaby]

Hanging seems painful. Maybe try taking something for anxiety first? Or something to make you drowsy?
Or just change methods. Try ordering SN. From browsing the forums, it sounds like the best way to go. Going peacefully and painlessly seems the right choice. We have already suffered so much during life, why suffer more on our departure?

 

[Dead beat dad]

I have to kill myself tonight. Everything is fucked. I hate this life, I hate myself, and have been a failure all my life. My wife keeps leaving me. I want to die. I want to die tonight but I always get up while I'm doing partial suspension hanging. What do I do? I have to die. This will be my 12th attempt tonight. I just want to die, I'm so sick of failing

Sounds like you are in a world of pain my brother. I am so sorry to hear about the catalogue of things that are vexing you. I feel your pain and I really wish there is something I could do to take your pain away and make things better.
I don't think I can help in terms of your choice of method brother or how to overcome the SI, I am here if it would help to vent your spleen.
It sounds like you've endured a huge amount of pain, I hope that you can find what you're looking for my friend.
DBD

 

[TheGoodGuy]

I have to kill myself tonight. Everything is fucked. I hate this life, I hate myself, and have been a failure all my life. My wife keeps leaving me. I want to die. I want to die tonight but I always get up while I'm doing partial suspension hanging. What do I do? I have to die. This will be my 12th attempt tonight. I just want to die, I'm so sick of failing

What kind of knot are you using to anchor the rope?

 

[waterbottleman]

I have to kill myself tonight. Everything is fucked. I hate this life, I hate myself, and have been a failure all my life. My wife keeps leaving me. I want to die. I want to die tonight but I always get up while I'm doing partial suspension hanging. What do I do? I have to die. This will be my 12th attempt tonight. I just want to die, I'm so sick of failing

Nooo my brother from Thailand =(

 

[Ryan.s]

What kind of knot are you using to anchor the rope?

Snuggle Hitch. Why? Snuggle hitch is on the support

 

[TheGoodGuy]

Snuggle Hitch. Why? Snuggle hitch is on the support

Thanks, I am asking because the support is just as important and I haven´t been able to find an answer on this site.

And I bet you use a slipknot for the hanging or are you going for a noose? Once I practiced with slipknot the knot slipped out so if you use a slipknot I am curious if you will be using a simple slipknot or something else.

 

[MoreThanAFeeling]

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/how-to-hang-yourself.1183/post-14106

Consider doing the same exercise like in the video above afterwards place your head in the noose.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

I have to kill myself tonight. Everything is fucked. I hate this life, I hate myself, and have been a failure all my life. My wife keeps leaving me. I want to die. I want to die tonight but I always get up while I'm doing partial suspension hanging. What do I do? I have to die. This will be my 12th attempt tonight. I just want to die, I'm so sick of failing

I'm really sorry, you sound so desperate. I've no advice, just sorrow.

 

[Ryan.s]

Thanks, I am asking because the support is just as important and I haven´t been able to find an answer on this site.

And I bet you use a slipknot for the hanging or are you going for a noose? Once I practiced with slipknot the knot slipped out so if you use a slipknot I am curious if you will be using a simple slipknot or something else.

Here's my set up

Here's my set up

As you can see I have a snuggle hitch on the barbell which is the support and the shirts wrap around the door until the slip knot.

 

[MoreThanAFeeling]

I think the noose is too low. Also, do you have a long cable wire? A tie might not hold your weight :/

 

[TheGoodGuy]

Here's my set up
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As you can see I have a snuggle hitch on the barbell which is the support and the shirts wrap around the door until the slip knot.

Thank you so much it looks good and is that a tie you are using? Also what knot have you used to tie the tie to the shirt.

In the over hundreds of hanging photos I have seen most actually use scarfs or ties it seem they tighten the slipknot better than most ropes, the rope I have can handle 250kg and is 10mm thick but the slipknot is not as tight as with a tie or scarf.

 

[Ryan.s]

I think the noose is too low. Also, do you have a long cable wire? A tie might not hold your weight :/

Damn right about that

My noose snapped. What do I use!!??

 

[Ghost2211]

I think in theory you are supposed to find that sweet spot where you compress the arteries causing dizziness and loss of consciousness within a few seconds. Granted I have not been able to master this either, but as stated above I think your Noose might be a little bit low. If you're not putting enough pressure you're not going to get dizzy and you're going to feel a choking sensation which will make you instinctively get up.

I am sorry you're in such a desperate state. I can see very clearly based on what you say, and the number of attempts you have done that you are very much set on this path. Sending you hugs and love.

 

[MoreThanAFeeling]

Damn right about that
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My noose snapped. What do I use!!??

A long cable wire/cord or a rope. Look behind your TV, or use the vacuum cord.

 

[Ryan.s]

A long cable wire/cord or a rope. Look behind your TV, or use the vacuum cord.

I've got this but it hurts like hell around my neck. And will it hold almost 200 pounds?

 

[MrOptions]

Sorry for your pain brother. I'm going through some shit now with my wife, maybe soon to be ex?

This life is really shitty that we have to experience.

Personally, my method sits under my bed, loaded and ready when I am. But, guns are usually not available to most people here. Try looking into the SN method as others have suggested. It seems to be peaceful by most accounts.

I wish you the best in any choice you make.

 

[Ryan.s]

A long cable wire/cord or a rope. Look behind your TV, or use the vacuum cord.

Or does a thinner cable work better?

 

[MoreThanAFeeling]

Looks short but it might work. On one end use the bowline knot and for your head the slipknot.

Use cream to reduce friction.

Or does a thinner cable work better?
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Looks good.

 

[Ryan.s]

Looks short but it might work. On one end use the bowline knot and for your head the slipknot.

Use cream to reduce friction.

Looks good.

How's that? Is the noose high enough?

 

[AlreadyGone]

I just feel that there is a lower chance of success with partial because you have a way to save yourself. With full suspension, you can't save yourself (granted you put yourself in that position).

 

[MoreThanAFeeling]

Yes high enough but I think the shirt part is a weak point.

Anyways good luck.

 

[Ryan.s]

Guys, I hope I die tonight. My 12th and hopefully final attempt. I feel peace with my death, not sacred at all and glad this life will finally be over. I never achieved anything and just got abused and taken advantage of by people my entire life. Spent my whole life feeling stupid and worthless and hurting myself. No one ever wanted to be my friend or get to know me. I never hurt anyone but for some reason everyone decided to hurt me. If I die tonight, always remember me as that guy that just wanted his wife. His best friend.

 

[Esc9434]

Damn, you ready to go, huh? Think twice about what you are doing. Maybe your problems are fixable?