The Disqualified
Disqualified as a Human Being
- Feb 4, 2023
- 140
I want to die, everyone wants me to die, they wanna kill me, everybody knew it all along, they fucking knew it, but no one gave a shit, and honestly, they were right, I'm just a weakling, natural selection would get me in nature, I'm just leeching off, I'm too weak to do anything. They are gonna get me jimmy, tough luck. And I'm fucked. But I think ahead, I have the SN ready and the antiemetic. I'm ready to die...
But... do you wanna know the worst part? I'll keep it real. Deep down I wish things were different, deep down I know happiness is possible, and that's the thing that hurts, it's seeing people being happy and realizing you're never gonna get that, or , if you could, you're just too weak to do it: that's the part that hurts the most. Deep down I feel like I could be much more you know, maybe if I could somehow recover I could contribute to the community, I could help people, love and finally be loved. Maybe I could become a mathematician as I always wanted, I could contribute to society and help others with my knowledge. Maybe I could really be something good. But instead I am here, and that's what hurts the most.
Really, I don't know how I'm getting out of this one...
But... do you wanna know the worst part? I'll keep it real. Deep down I wish things were different, deep down I know happiness is possible, and that's the thing that hurts, it's seeing people being happy and realizing you're never gonna get that, or , if you could, you're just too weak to do it: that's the part that hurts the most. Deep down I feel like I could be much more you know, maybe if I could somehow recover I could contribute to the community, I could help people, love and finally be loved. Maybe I could become a mathematician as I always wanted, I could contribute to society and help others with my knowledge. Maybe I could really be something good. But instead I am here, and that's what hurts the most.
Really, I don't know how I'm getting out of this one...
