Help I have no idea how to end my life

[cryst]

For context, I'm closely monitored and I'm also not allowed to leave to get anything because last time I said that I was "going to go for a walk" I ran away with intentions to never come back home ever. So I'm not very trusted and a lot of things I could use to harm myself are hidden. I have no access to knives or rope, I can't go anywhere alone, and I have almost no money, so that pretty much rules out most methods. I don't know what my options are. Maybe starvation or taking a lot of cold medicine. Like the type of cold medicine that has extra stuff in it that's bad in high doses? I don't have much but I'm so done with life and need to do it somehow. Also how would I say goodbye to my loved ones. Like my close friends and such? Any suggestions on methods that are realistic for my situation would be appreciated.

 

[FuneralCry]

At least the way that I see it, it's pretty much impossible to ctb if you are being so closely monitored. It would probably just fail taking the cold medication, as if that was a reliable method I'm pretty sure that it would be discussed on here and be in the suicide resource compilation. Sadly suicide is simply not that straightforward and if I had a good answer I would already be gone at this point. I just think that all that anyone can do with methods, is do their own research to decide what is best for themselves, and with saying farewell I would write notes to act as an explanation.
I wish you the best of luck.

 

[morgzfreeman2345]

Tough situation, I wish I had more insight for you. There will be more freedoms in time should the desire persist.