I have a strong desire for CTB, due to fear of undergoing major, destructive, and irreversible surgeries.

[disabledlife]

Have you ever wished to die rather than undergo major, destructive, and irreversible surgeries? Surgeries such as organ amputations, irreversible side effects like prostheses, loss of function, etc.

 

[Binderz]

Yes, your words resonate with me. If the surgery is extremely risky or has a high probability of a bad outcome (like becoming even more disabled), I would say no way.