Venting I have a hard time caring for my self, seeing as I am dead certain on ctb-ing quite soon

[KillingPain267]

I don't care about long term effects of fast food or alcohol other than to seem functional to my family. Even short term effects such as stomach pains from food and hangxiety from drinking binges, I just treat the symptoms acutely with benzos and the like. I can't seem to care anymore. Point of no return I guess.

Is this bad? Or is it better to stay healthy before ctb?

 

[youpi]

Point of no return will be when benzos & the like won't work anymore.

 

[KillingPain267]

Point of no return will be when benzos & the like won't work anymore.

Well, I could tough it out and tell my family I have a stomach bug at first. But yeah, that would be a natural point of no return. I've bee waiting for something to kind of force me to take that jump into actually doing the ctb anyway. Good point.