Discussion I have 2 probems

[Irishsteve88]

My first question is how on earth do you get anyway from family who know what you want to do aka (CBT) end your freeking life.

Second question with all sorts of mental health problems I have does anyone else have them

1 massively addicted to watching porn and masturbating twice a day tree times a day its crazy.

2 extremely hardcore thoughts of killing yourself just before bed time when you close your eyes.

3 thoughts of harming others even though I'd never but the thoughts are crazy.

4 have extreme thought of crashing your car at high speed

Besides that I suffer from

Depression
Anxiety
Bi-polar
The usual shit..

I have a car I travel alone everyday to my place of work. I come home approximately 5pm the latest. Plenty of side roads with lots of trees but my car might be seen that is my problem atm.

I need some advice on this especially the thought section

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

1 massively addicted to watching porn and masturbating twice a day tree times a day its crazy.

2 extremely hardcore thoughts of killing yourself just before bed time when you close your eyes.

3 thoughts of harming others even though I'd never but the thoughts are crazy.

4 have extreme thought of crashing your car at high speed

1. I can relate. I was addicted to porn in the past. Spent all day watching but not anymore. I watch sometimes but then I realize I watch because don't have a girlfriend and want to kill myself.

2. Yes. All nights. I go to sleep while holding a belt just if I feel impulsive to hang myself.

3. No. I don't want to hurt anyone.

4. I don't have a car.

 

[noko]

2 extremely hardcore thoughts of killing yourself just before bed time when you close your eyes.

3 thoughts of harming others even though I'd never but the thoughts are crazy.

4 have extreme thought of crashing your car at high speed

Man that really sounds like very bad Intrusive Thoughts from Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. Not everyone with OCD washes their hands like crazy. Sometimes this is how it presents itself and it's not unusual at all for it to happen this way. Please take care of yourself and don't do anything rash.

 

[Irishsteve88]

Man that really sounds like very bad Intrusive Thoughts from Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. Not everyone with OCD washes their hands like crazy. Sometimes this is how it presents itself and it's not unusual at all for it to happen this way. Please take care of yourself and don't do anything rash.

This has bin going ages now I am on meds the usual meds like most here. But that's exactly problems along with a few others but the porn thing is madness

 

[Lostnotfound]

I get the urge to CTB every morning when I wake up and it lasts for about 6-8 hours sometimes more. By the time it gets to bedtime I am too tired but know I will be going through it again the next morning. I dont have everything I need so I cant act on it but I'm hoping to rectify that fairly soon.

In terms of getting away from family/people etc, its not difficult. I walked out the house on 30th Dec and Ive not been found yet despite still using my car. The difficult bit is the 'aloneness'. Some people like it, i hate it but thats sort of what I was running from.

 

[noko]

This has bin going ages now I am on meds the usual meds like most here. But that's exactly problems along with a few others but the porn thing is madness

Exactly what meds are you on? Did the porn thing start before you were on meds? Are you Abilify by chance? Because I know Abilify can make it crazy.