Venting I hate this shit life.

[Lara Francis]

I have been a member for a good few months now and feel we all have lots in common.
We have our own personal battles each and every day which mentally drain the last bit of hope and strength from us.
We are fed so much crap and led to believe we can quote "recover or get better"
Who believes this ?
I feel so broken today and am so fed up with people telling me what I can and can't do.I had to see my son in a shit contact centre today to prove I can interact with him when I've only done it for the past 9 years !.
When I was hospitalised, I was ordered around and nothing has changed.i feel trapped in a life that is so f shit at the moment and I have no control.I have to keep it together so my son gets closer to coming home and not further away.
When we are very depressed and sucicidal does these tendencies ever go away? To me,they are always in the background and ready to surface when we are pissed off again.
Life has never felt so fragile and balanced on a knife point which can swing either way.sometimes there are no words to say or hear when it's all too much.
So for the waffle again x

 

[wezel]

I hate this shit life now.
I don't want it anymore.
There should be pubs/cafes where you can order - apart from a sensible last meal -
a cup of special brew and get it done and over with.
For a surcharge the pub/cafeowner arranges also the disposal of the body.
All major cards accepted.
Why is such a sensible and useful business model nowhere to be seen ?

 

[Justanotherconsumer]

This life is like destiny try as you might eventually the destiny catches up to you.

 

[MachineGunDani]

I'm sorry ur down. That sucks about ur son I can relate a little being a mom! It's a horrible feeling.