I hate social interactions so much... fellow isolaters do you relate?

[lnlybnny]

I truly don't know how to act and what to say during these moments, with relatives for example. Even the mere act of saying ''hi'' feels really weird. I always feel extremely awkward and out of place, like I don't belong, I have to put on a mask or a façade and say things I don't care about or go into conversations I don't find interesting at all feeling all self conscious all the time, like they're judging my every move and facial expressions. It's very hard trying to act like I'm okay with it. I hate it so much. I feel hopeless. I need to ctb because I don't know how to act amongst people, I despise most of them and I'm almost 30 and never had a job and been isolating for over 10 years and I feel that as the years went by I became worse at trying to interact, this is not for me. I think there's no way I can find my way into this mess.

 

[ThisGameIsOverrated]

same, tho for me it's not that I don't know what to say or how to act but can't stand how most social interactions are just meaningless small talk like "lovely weather" "how are you" etc. for the sake of being "social" or "popular" with no real end goal so people just end up blabbering on about stuff they know deep down they don't actually care about. I don't get why normal people can't just sit in silence.

 

[astr4]

yes. i love being avoidant. human interaction fucking sucks. i think all humans will let me down eventually so what's the point in connecting with them.

 

[lnlybnny]

same, tho for me it's not that I don't know what to say or how to act but can't stand how most social interactions are just meaningless small talk like "lovely weather" "how are you" etc. for the sake of being "social" or "popular" with no real end goal so people just end up blabbering on about stuff they know deep down they don't actually care about. I don't get why normal people can't just sit in silence.

I feel you. This is one of the worst things. When they begin to ask about what I'm doing or make an unnecessary comment, like about how skinnier I am or stuff like that (I had struggles with ED especially in the past so this is very hard topic for me) or if I got a job. Why people feel so entittled to talk about such intimate topics? I don't understand.

 

[CantDoIt]

I have horrible bdd and constantly compare myself to others and worry about how I look which makes me not want to interact with anyone. Most of the time I am dying to escape.

 

[simplyshmee]

I used to have terrible social anxiety and inability to communicate with people. Basically, any social situation made me feel extremely uncomfortable.
I have been working a job in customer service for the past 4 years and it has greatly improved my ability to communicate. In just about any situation.
But also made me realize fully how much I actually do not want to communicate with most people.

 

[Crystal]

I truly don't know how to act and what to say during these moments, with relatives for example. Even the mere act of saying ''hi'' feels really weird. I always feel extremely awkward and out of place, like I don't belong, I have to put on a mask or a façade and say things I don't care about or go into conversations I don't find interesting at all feeling all self conscious all the time, like they're judging my every move and facial expressions. It's very hard trying to act like I'm okay with it. I hate it so much. I feel hopeless. I need to ctb because I don't know how to act amongst people, I despise most of them and I'm almost 30 and never had a job and been isolating for over 10 years and I feel that as the years went by I became worse at trying to interact, this is not for me. I think there's no way I can find my way into this mess.

I'm with you there, also long time NEET and still hadn't worked a job in my early 30s so I feel ashamed and hard to get out of this rut although I'm too coward to die or live so I just feel like rotting mentally at home I just never found myself to be a sociable person even in my youth anyways only having a few irl friends in life who eventually move away, I find it easier if someone approaches me first and/or being friendly towards me then I'd be more motivated to talk to them though

 

[Amnesiac_88]

I hate talking to people too, even small interactions like buying something in a store make me extremely uncomfortable, always practicing every word I'm going to say to others cause I have no social skills, I really like being isolated and not having to speak to anyone, I want to kill myself cause i refuse to interact with people, I just don't fit in anywhere.