I hate people. Once I CTB no one will be able to look at me, laugh at me or bully me.

[Daystavro]

I am 26 male.
I hate people.
All my life I have been kind and nice and pleasant to people and they have just looked me unpleasantly, laughed at me and bullied me.
At school, army, jobs, university.
When i'll ctb in a few months, no one will be able to look at me, laugh at me or bully me ever again.
I will never have to interact or talk to anyone.

 

[BlackDragonof1989]

I felt this way earlier today, but thankfully drugs do help mellow me though I know it's a bit artificial <3 Ohwuh I'm sorry you're hurting <3

 

[Daystavro]

I felt this way earlier today, but thankfully drugs do help mellow me though I know it's a bit artificial <3 Ohwuh I'm sorry you're hurting <3

I've felt this my whole life, not just today.
People are evil and judgemental and unpleasant.
That's why I want to leave this fucking humanity and world forever.

 

[BlackDragonof1989]

I've felt this my whole life, not just today.
People are evil and judgemental and unpleasant.
That's why I want to leave this fucking humanity and world forever.

I see, that must be horrible to feel this always, I would have already been gone if I had no respite <3 *hugs you warmly and sighs* I'm sorry <3

 

[jaemus12]

With the exception of being in the army, you just described my life.

Good luck to you. We will be here to support you.

 

[longingforrelease]

I'm sorry to hear that things have been that bad for so long. I hope you are able to find some peace either in some kind of recovery or in the release we are all contemplating. Peace to you friend.

 

[VanHeineken]

May all your endeavours be successful and may you find peace, my friend.

 

[pushka]

I realised a while ago that people just use me if I am too nice to them, but it has taken me into the opposite direction in which I am just constantly hyper aware and cautious of everyone. I no longer trust anyone as I just assume that they will be awful people.

I am very much like you and I hope you find peace

 

[Letting Go]

I felt this way earlier today, but thankfully drugs do help mellow me though I know it's a bit artificial <3 Ohwuh I'm sorry you're hurting <3

Which drugs worked for you? I may need some to get me through the next few months.

 

[TAW122]

I've share similar sentiments too throughout my life. I always tell myself, I am only a simple step away from peace/death, but that simple step (which is ctb'ing) is one of the most difficult steps to take as it requires one to overcome the survival instinct, commit to the action, and just do it. There should be no second thoughts, doubts, or hesitation, but just action with conviction. It takes a lot of courage to go through with such an attempt. Back to my point though, I always like to think that these normies, bullies, assholes, or people who suck and are mean to me aren't gonna be able to hurt me or control me anymore once I ctb. In my eyes, they may have won the battles and conquered me during my time alive, but once I'm dead, I'm the ultimate winner as I would have eternal peace and they can no longer affect me.

 

[Lifeisatrap]

I feel you, the general public sends chills down my spine .

 

[VanHeineken]

[QUOTE="thrw_a_way1221221, post: 132055, member: 2141 "In my eyes, they may have won the battles and conquered me during my time alive, but once I'm dead, I'm the ultimate winner as I would have eternal peace and they can no longer affect me. [/QUOTE]

They will have each other and I can't think of any grater punishment for them. They can just sit there and rot in each other's toxic and ugly company. Fuck them!

 

[nztphill]

They even let you die how you want