Im a 18 M. I am a person who loves truly and cares deeply for others . And I fell in love with a girl who even though was living a distance away from me but still connection felt real. She initiated and started flirting with me. . She initiated at everything.She used to talk with me all day long and that was probably the best time ever. Sometime afterwards,
I will never understand why she distanced herself from me like she never loved me in the first place.
Used to leave convos dry and slowly drew back. And then she had to see me go through my suicide attempt.
But as I talked to her felt like that I was forcing her to talk to me, even tho she was obsessed with me at first I came to the realization that I'm a burden on her and was messing with her "peace of mind"
So I said my goodbye to her and told her how much I loved her for one last time. And even though she replied back saying that she loved me too.... At this point I was convinced that she never actually meant what she said so I never reached back but "I loved her" And it's been 2 months and I miss her so much.
And I'm starting to Hate myself because I know that she probably doesn't feel the same way.. And probably doesn't like me.
And probably doesnt give a shit about me cause why would she
Or maybe she does care she always told me that she loved me but her actions are the quite opposite. :( And I Get that know that she was not that good of a person and just played with my feelings and was someone that just wanted attention.
After all of this that I went through , its left me empty and has completely changed how I look at love. I don't even wanna be In love no more. I feel used and I feel like I'll probably never have someone in my life that would love me as I love them
I just wanted someone to love me and help me. I feel so unloved.I really can't take it. Im tired man. It's been years I've not had any genuine friends who care Or anybody... Killing myself feels like the last resort :( Cause I'm a burden to everyone and no one likes me. And I don't have any IRL friends who I can vent to about this Or any friends at all
I will never understand why she distanced herself from me like she never loved me in the first place.
Used to leave convos dry and slowly drew back. And then she had to see me go through my suicide attempt.
But as I talked to her felt like that I was forcing her to talk to me, even tho she was obsessed with me at first I came to the realization that I'm a burden on her and was messing with her "peace of mind"
So I said my goodbye to her and told her how much I loved her for one last time. And even though she replied back saying that she loved me too.... At this point I was convinced that she never actually meant what she said so I never reached back but "I loved her" And it's been 2 months and I miss her so much.
And I'm starting to Hate myself because I know that she probably doesn't feel the same way.. And probably doesn't like me.
And probably doesnt give a shit about me cause why would she
Or maybe she does care she always told me that she loved me but her actions are the quite opposite. :( And I Get that know that she was not that good of a person and just played with my feelings and was someone that just wanted attention.
After all of this that I went through , its left me empty and has completely changed how I look at love. I don't even wanna be In love no more. I feel used and I feel like I'll probably never have someone in my life that would love me as I love them
I just wanted someone to love me and help me. I feel so unloved.I really can't take it. Im tired man. It's been years I've not had any genuine friends who care Or anybody... Killing myself feels like the last resort :( Cause I'm a burden to everyone and no one likes me. And I don't have any IRL friends who I can vent to about this Or any friends at all
