I hate my father

[Exiled spirit]

I hate my father. I really do. The harm he did to me is unimaginable. I have to live with him and with my mother and older brother. I think he is one of the reasons why I have social anxiety and really want to end my life. He broke me, and my mother did too. I'm fed up with this reality. I have been abused all my life from my parents, classmates, teachers and strangers. All that abuse has turned into burning anger flowing through my veins.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm so sorry. Childhood abuse is so difficult to overcome I think- it shapes us into who we are as adults. Life's hard enough as it is with a stable background. Having to overcome a whole load of CPTSD on top makes things so much harder.

Is there any opportunity for you to move away from them? University or flatshare or something? I honestly think the ONLY really effective way of dealing with toxic people is to get away from them and do all you can to focus on your own life. I hope you can.

 

[jodes2]

Sorry you've been through so much

 

[Rational man]

I feel your pain because i faced the same abuse from my dysfunctional parents and siblings who stole money from me . Of course, they believe its normal behaviour but narcissistic people dont live in the real world. Their arrogance and sense of superiority is a recipe for disaster and destruction of everyone. My parent's died miserably and my brother is a nasty recluse who spends his time abusing people online. I escaped at age 18, and though i carry the scars i was able to live on my terms having disowned them. Please consider getting some support. These people wont change and they need someone to deflect their misery.

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds so horrible what you've been through and it's disgusting how people so unfairly bring life into this world just to treat them so badly. People like that really just make this world a more hellish place, it's true that as well as life itself humans certainly are the problem.