Venting I hate feeling

[Saponification]

I hate being able to feel. I hate feeling pain, I hate feeling fear, I hate feeling disgust, I hate feeling tired and miserable all the time. Sometimes I hate feeling pleasure, since pleasure is addictive, it gives me hope and keeps me chained to life, looking for more pleasure to relieve the suffering when the true solution is to cease my existence.

Wish I could just turn myself off. Stop feeling. Stop caring. Just end the cycle once and for all.