theguineapigking
Useless piece of trash
- Dec 5, 2019
- 593
I lost my temper and broke my electric toothbrush. I then broke some other stuff and went crazy cursing any possible god(to piss them off, In case they exist). Then I tested my new knife out(if you catch my drift). Let's just say that my stomach now looks like it was attacked by a wild cat that had it out for me(not deep sadly)...I'm even more numb now, emotionally. I just want to cease to exist. The pain that I felt from alcohol on my stomach(2in1 combo...disinfect+torture!) was so bad that I got sick. I then realized that I'm bound to relapse again, and now the thought of an afterlife scares me a LOT, because eventually I'll feel pain that bad again.
Do any of you ever lose it and self harm out of hatred and anger, and then just go absolutely nuts? I feel like my mental mindset is slipping away. I feel myself literally going nuts. I'm scared I'll become someone that I hate...well...someone that I hate even more.
Thanks for any support. I don't often post for this reason. I wish you guys all the best.
Edit: I feel bad, because I know there are others here that are in more pain than I am.
Do any of you ever lose it and self harm out of hatred and anger, and then just go absolutely nuts? I feel like my mental mindset is slipping away. I feel myself literally going nuts. I'm scared I'll become someone that I hate...well...someone that I hate even more.
Thanks for any support. I don't often post for this reason. I wish you guys all the best.
Edit: I feel bad, because I know there are others here that are in more pain than I am.
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