I hate everything And everyone

[imnotsurewhy]

I hate everything.i m gonna get a job but i just realized it wont change anything i will still live with my damn parents And No i dont like the job i can't do basic house stuff because noone bothered to taught me And before you comment:bUt YoU CoUld LeaRn right thats not the fucking point why can't people just not have children when they dont know how to parent And No its not an excuse that is hard to be a parent imagine if a surgeon wanted to get away with that :oops you died but your family shouldnt sue because its hard i m such a victim because i fucked up my job but its hard so you can't hold me accountable i hate theres No prison time for being a bad parent how is it Ok that my life is permantetly ruined No i dont care if something good happens to me what about the last 23 years of my life??they wont suddenly matter because this one time went good? Also i can't stand the :are you Ok question ?especially if i dont know you well no i m not i just now crossed the road looking at the truck coming my way trying to calculate when to go exactly so it will hit me but i can't tell you that can i? Not without you trying to get me kindnapped And forcefully drugged because you are so gullibbe that you didnt question why is suicide so bad to the point you think youre helping me by removing my freedom because by the ever so fucking patronizing idea that suicidal people are irrational by definitywny so we dont know better And have to be saved just to be wage slaves

 

[d3m1g0d]

I fucking hate those pieces of shits i fucking hate i fucking hate hate hate hate hate but then they are there and what can i do am i the wrong person here maybe i really am but then what can i do what is wrong to correct what the fuck has to do with life that i need to stay here do they want me to do shit all the time do they wanna die i just wanna die i don't wanna bother with all the shit they give me yet they keep spouting nonsense human bullshit i fucking hate it i hate existence i cannot coexist with people because i cant handle the fuck they are on about i wish people die either that or i just die there is no solution to this i wanna die i wanna kill myself
Is what i would think, and if i really thought about it more, the way i presented this is crude and annoying to everyone, that begs the question: do i care? Of course i do, if otherwise i wouldn't be writing this right now, i want to get my point across to people, that i hate life and cannot bear living with anyone else, and i also want to die. Honestly, i have no idea what to do, maybe researching is the best idea because currently i have no idea how to start with suicide, there are megathreads but so many things are packed in there, and not much i can do with the intense surveillance (that is, i can't do anything without people in my house for even 1 hour), luckily they have no idea that I'm suicidal, i just need for a chance when they are away for a long time, that would be rare though, but i had that chance back then for about 6 hours at most, so hanging would probably be possible, I'll research other methods too.
Though this is offtopic channel, so i thought maybe I'd present something random, like the gallery-dl that is incredibly fast at downloading images on danbooru and pixiv (tested twitter but authentication didn't work, and have yet to use it on supported sites), or mangadex (just a bunch of manga/comic if you'd like), something like stardew valley, terraria and couple of games to play, but they are very time consuming instead, so maybe just listen to some jpop, well, not much i have thought of, andreamosaic to show off with photomosaics that are stylish (depends on how many images you got so it should pair with gallery-dl well), or vectorizing images with vectorizer (a free website, and gives you a fine svg image, what the fuck is with google giving us a paid option that performs even worse than the free one, fuck you corporate greed bastards)
I didn't put much thought into writing this an clearly just me going on a tangent (i like some math, like the pidgeonhole and the Ramsey's theorem that i heard of a day ago from mathematics golden), so i hope that whoever read this have a better day or something, sorry for boring you out

 

[WhiteRabbit]

I mean you really could just watch some YouTube videos about how to do basic life stuff. Your parents probably should have taught you but cmon dude, you're 23 now.

 

[imnotsurewhy]

I mean you really could just watch some YouTube videos about how to do basic life stuff. Your parents probably should have taught you but cmon dude, you're 23 now

I can its not the point