7thundercloud
Member
- Apr 2, 2023
- 28
Im a transgender male. I was born female and have transitioned to male. I do not have too surgery or bottom surgery, I am 6 months on testosterone. I pass fairly well, ive got some but of muscle from one year in the gym.
I still hate myself. I have a girlfriend, shes straight and its clear she loves me, but I still hate myself. I hate my body, and the fact that I have to live like this forever.
The way my girlfriend will have a difficult time dating me because im not just her boyfriend, im her TRANS boyfriend. The legal name, the adjustments for sexual intimacy, the fear of being perceived as a gay couple. I dont want her to deal with all of my mess.
I often think suicide is my only option. Ive been consistent in the gym for a year, and I guess I am impatient. I still have waist fat that I fucking hate and cant seem to get rid of. This life is too difficult, id rather be dead.
I still hate myself. I have a girlfriend, shes straight and its clear she loves me, but I still hate myself. I hate my body, and the fact that I have to live like this forever.
The way my girlfriend will have a difficult time dating me because im not just her boyfriend, im her TRANS boyfriend. The legal name, the adjustments for sexual intimacy, the fear of being perceived as a gay couple. I dont want her to deal with all of my mess.
I often think suicide is my only option. Ive been consistent in the gym for a year, and I guess I am impatient. I still have waist fat that I fucking hate and cant seem to get rid of. This life is too difficult, id rather be dead.