I have been clinically depressed since I was about 8 years old and have autism and ASHD together too and it kills me cause even when depressed I can't just mope like many so my ADHD make me have to do something so I do and I get depressed while doing it then it gets so boring and the autism kicks in and I may try and do something else but if it's not going right like spilling a mop bucket or burning something I'm cooking I breakdown. It kills me most cause it affects working and drives me insane and I can't enjoy a second or employment but worse creates a rift with my mother cause if she asks me to do something I'll not do it right away and it drives her crazy and then I may do it soon after and she complains I didn't do it properly cause I just wanted it out of the way or then I may do it 2-3 days later properly and complains it too so long. I wish I wasn't ADHD cause I would just be depressed and rot in my bed and she'd understand me a bit better cause doing nothing compared to not doing something properly is more apparent how bad I am rn.
