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thecolourgold

thecolourgold

night night coming soon. ❤️
Apr 22, 2023
100
Things were getting better, things looked up, I thought it was going to work out but no. Just like always I'm fucked again. I need to succeed in my attempts. I can't keep torturing myself day after day just to wake the next morning. I need to end this. I really thought my life was going to get better but it's not.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
46,847
I certainly believe that any hope in this cruel, nightmarish world is just a delusion to inevitably lead to more suffering once one has no choice but to confront the harsh reality of existing here. But anyway I hope that you find the freedom you are searching for, existing in this world truly is something so hopeless and to me it's really understandable wishing to be free from the torture that existing brings.
 
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peaceindeath

I want peace
May 5, 2023
79
Maybe if you keep going, it might get better for real, it might also get worse. Life is uncertain.
 
thecolourgold

thecolourgold

night night coming soon. ❤️
Apr 22, 2023
100
Maybe if you keep going, it might get better for real, it might also get worse. Life is uncertain.
It's not going to get better. I'm going to be homeless soon and if that happens, my cats will die. If I kill myself my friends will take care of them. It's my responsibility to die at this point. I am nothing but a burden on my loved ones, myself and this world. I've been attempting for weeks with no luck yet. Hoping for the best.
 
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peaceindeath

I want peace
May 5, 2023
79
It's not going to get better. I'm going to be homeless soon and if that happens, my cats will die. If I kill myself my friends will take care of them. It's my responsibility to die at this point. I am nothing but a burden on my loved ones, myself and this world. I've been attempting for weeks with no luck yet. Hoping for the best.
When you're too tired , you have the right to give up.
 
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CentreMid

CentreMid

Midfielder
Aug 23, 2018
535
I'm so sorry you're in this position. I was in the same boat for the longest time, tried recovery a few times too. It really is devastating to have a chance at something decent for once, only to have it ripped away from you. I hope you find peace.
 
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Ernest1964

Specialist
Jan 6, 2023
362
Hope is a terrible terrible thing.
 
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