Story I had a dream about CBT

[Chloe3]

I hope this is okay to post here.
I had this dream some nights ago and i wanted to share it.
I feel like it describes very well what's going on inside of me regarding CBT.

In my dream i was an exchange student or something and was visiting the US
there was a full trip planned and we where exploring the city
and one of the stops was this improv/ open mic place
and the people who just left, tolled me to be careful because there is someone super suicidal in there who was telling everyone to off themselves soon
but no one was super concerned about it and just did not care.
And as i walked in, i saw that person standing there and greeting the people coming in nicely. He was also telling everyone that he is gonna kill himself soon and apologized for it.
He smiled while saying that and might have looked okay form the outside but i noticed he was restless and nervous.
So i walked up to him and asked him about it and he said that he wants to kill himself today
I looked him deep in the eyes and got really close to him
and i tolled to him, that he was not going to do it.
That i can see in his eyes that he deep down does not want to end it all.
Because if he was that serious about it, he would not be telling that to that many people and instead would have done it already.
i tolled him he was just stalling.
He looked at and was flashed and did not know what to say.
He felt called out, even though he did not knew those things until i tolled them to him
And then we kissed passionately and i pushed him against the wall
Then after that he looked at me and said thank you. He looked flustered and it was obvious he had lots of things to think about now
He stumbled off to some other people sitting in front of the open mic place, which where his family and they where really happy about him going over to them.
But before he went, he held on for a second and gave me something and said that he doesn't need it anymore.
I looked at it and it was a detonator for an explosive.
I understood his initial plan, the place was mined.
I stood still for a second, i looked at him walking to his family and in their open arms
I thought to myself thank you
I looked at the detonator
Thoughts racing in my head
Thoughts about the other people in here
Thoughts about me wanting to do this for a long time now
Thoughts about how it would be
Then all the racing thoughts stared to calm down
and turned all into one strong feeling
I started to feel relive
like everything is gonna be fine from now on
And i went on and pressed the trigger.

 

[𝐒𝐚𝐤𝐮 ☆]

Had a dream where I was holding a revolver, pointed it to my head and shot, woke up mad that it wasn't real. I hate dreams most of them end quick and in confusion.

 

[OnceThougtTwiceDone]

For later, it's CTB, not CBT, cbt is a kind of therapy.

 

[Little_Suzy]

For later, it's CTB, not CBT, cbt is a kind of therapy.

It took around 50 comments for my auto-correct to stop spelling "ctb" "cbt."

 

[Chloe3]

For later, it's CTB, not CBT, cbt is a kind of therapy.

Oh fluff. Yeah thank you i think auto correct did it's thing again. Can I still edit the title?

Had a dream where I was holding a revolver, pointed it to my head and shot, woke up mad that it wasn't real. I hate dreams most of them end quick and in confusion.

I always liked those kinds of dreams. Had one too once about shooting myself infront of work college. But the gun did not work because it was just a dream so i jumped down a building instead hihi

Wish it would be easier to get a gun. That would be my preferred way to CTB.

It took around 50 comments for my auto-correct to stop spelling "ctb" "cbt."

Yeah i just added it to my phone's dictionary, but i feel like it for sure will happen again