I guess I just going to have to do full suspension

[Seekingawayout]

After another night of trying in vain to make ligature or partial work, I'm just fed up.
Full scares the crap out of me, though. Particularly because last night I had my airway closed off once or twice when trying partial and it's a horrible feeling.
I'm running out of alcohol, and I'm over this. I just want to be gone.

 

[time2fly]

Yeah there's no way around the airway closing. Good news with. Full is that you will be unconscious before you get the urge to breathe as long as you take a few deep breaths before. Full is good because it's just no backing out.

 

[Seekingawayout]

Yeah there's no way around the airway closing. Good news with. Full is that you will be unconscious before you get the urge to breathe as long as you take a few deep breaths before. Full is good because it's just no backing out.

Yes, that IS the appeal. My main problem with partial is the out of control feeling of passing out upright. So no matter how much I resolved to stick with it, my legs defied me.
I thought I had found a way around this. The "prayer position" so most of my body was still in the floor. I tested it, I could stay in and had no desire to abort. But I had to abort for awhile because of things I needed to do. I go back, try the exact same thing, but just got exploding head. I couldn't even find my sweet spot with fingers at that point (I have been able to do this consistently until then).
So, yeah. I'm going to try a few more times now that am rehydrated but I'm giving myself a cutoff time after which I'll set up for full, get drunk, then just go for it, IG. If I drunk enough, maybe I'll forget about the anticipated pain and just go for it.