Aloken
I choose love
- Jan 25, 2021
- 280
Yep, I've had enough of this physical life. Can't deal with this shit anymore, don't wanna deal with this shit anymore. 2020 f****** destroyed me and I've decided to end it all months now. Since then I was just procrastinating, feeling so tired to figure stuff out about my method and feeling scared that police will come at my door after ordering
sn or that it will be found somehow by my family. Yeah no, that's enough. I'll either do this, risk it and have that life saving bottle in my hands or I will continue thinking stuff and enduring that shit show that is called life. Well, I do have some stuff that make me feel better, it's not all terrible, but if doesn't matter, because the terrible stuff outweigh the ok stuff. I'm done, done, dddone. I feel sad, betrayed, abandoned, unloved by my love, ignored, anxious, wrecked, fed up, miserable, fucking UNHAPPY to sum it up. I don't want to try anymore and I can't try anyway since when I even start to try trying, I feel anxious. I don't want to feel anxious anymore, ENOUGH with anxiety. I just want peace, serenity, calmness and stability. I'm done, this is my life. I'll order sn.
sn or that it will be found somehow by my family. Yeah no, that's enough. I'll either do this, risk it and have that life saving bottle in my hands or I will continue thinking stuff and enduring that shit show that is called life. Well, I do have some stuff that make me feel better, it's not all terrible, but if doesn't matter, because the terrible stuff outweigh the ok stuff. I'm done, done, dddone. I feel sad, betrayed, abandoned, unloved by my love, ignored, anxious, wrecked, fed up, miserable, fucking UNHAPPY to sum it up. I don't want to try anymore and I can't try anyway since when I even start to try trying, I feel anxious. I don't want to feel anxious anymore, ENOUGH with anxiety. I just want peace, serenity, calmness and stability. I'm done, this is my life. I'll order sn.