I got everything i need for sn, hopefully I will try soon

[peewee]

I cant believe i finally have everything, im just hoping i can go through with it...i only have one shot rlly, i';ve been reading alot of peoples experience failed and successful. im hoping it wont be painful, thats why i wanted to take codeine as well as benzos , but i dont think i can do that? im thinking of going to the woods to do it but its so cold and wet now. i would rather do it in my room but theres other people in the house. i think it might be ok if their sleeping, but im worried i will panic and ask for help.

 

[tiredape]

I just did too,do you happen to know what dosage you should stick to? I've got metoclopramide I don't know how I should start about it. Also my SN is 97 percent pure. Is that okay?

 

[peewee]

im not sure, theres a lot of info in the resources page you should check that, the protocols are listed there too. i read 97% is ok, i suppose you can test it too if you like x

I just did too,do you happen to know what dosage you should stick to? I've got metoclopramide I don't know how I should start about it. Also my SN is 97 percent pure. Is that okay?

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[ifihadnever]

I'm glad you have everything you need. I also wondered about codeine myself but haven't heard it mentioned here so was unsure. I couldn't go ahead with mine when planned - a fear like I'd never felt before set it (but im a highly anxious person and had overthought the situation so think I caused myself a lot of problems), im still angry & upset and myself so will just need some more time. I hope you are able to go through with it if it is what you choose. It's a strange feeling isn't it. Must be a relief to have what you need now tho.

 

[Chemi]

I cant believe i finally have everything, im just hoping i can go through with it...i only have one shot rlly, i';ve been reading alot of peoples experience failed and successful. im hoping it wont be painful, thats why i wanted to take codeine as well as benzos , but i dont think i can do that? im thinking of going to the woods to do it but its so cold and wet now. i would rather do it in my room but theres other people in the house. i think it might be ok if their sleeping, but im worried i will panic and ask for help.

It's an alright experience. It does feel rather weird, almost scary. I just was not used to my heart beating that strong and fast as well as vision going blurry and ears ringing, etc.

I only tried a smaller dose and I didn't feel any pain, besides headache, until way later in the night. Might be different with the recommended high dose.

What i noticed is that i got very cold very quick. Warm blanket is probably a good call.

 

[peewee]

I'm glad you have everything you need. I also wondered about codeine myself but haven't heard it mentioned here so was unsure. I couldn't go ahead with mine when planned - a fear like I'd never felt before set it (but im a highly anxious person and had overthought the situation so think I caused myself a lot of problems), im still angry & upset and myself so will just need some more time. I hope you are able to go through with it if it is what you choose. It's a strange feeling isn't it. Must be a relief to have what you need now tho.

yea im not sure because your not supposed to mix benzos and opiates, but im catching the bus anyway so idk? i think it causes respiritory depression...sorry your feeling such frustration x im hoping a combo of benzos and perhaps remembering my reasons to ctb will help overcome it, my sn is vaccum packed so once its open its open. im relieved and also worried i wont go through with it, or there will be alot of pain if i do. its unlikely though...are you going to try again?

It's an alright experience. It does feel rather weird, almost scary. I just was not used to my heart beating that strong and fast as well as vision going blurry and ears ringing, etc.

I only tried a smaller dose and I didn't feel any pain until way later in the night. Might be different with the recommended high dose.

What i noticed is that i got very cold very quick. Warm blanket is probably a good call.

oh wow i didnt realise you tried it, how much did you take? what was the pain like?
i have beta blockers so hopefully heart wont race

 

[Chemi]

oh wow i didnt realise you tried it, how much did you take? what was the pain like?

I know we aren't supposed to test ingest SN... but I just dissolved 3g :D

I know we aren't supposed to test ingest SN, but I'm gonna test ingest SN quickly haha :D I just can't resist. I ate lots at dinner earlier and didn't take any of the recommended meds. Been staring at my SN for almost 2 hours now. I am so incredibly tempted. I'm not even sad at the moment. I...

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Headache was really bad. Felt like my forehead and neck was about to explode. Besides that pain only came as general muscle soreness and a bit of a tummy ache later during the night

 

[peewee]

I know we aren't supposed to test ingest SN... but I just dissolved 3g :D

I know we aren't supposed to test ingest SN, but I'm gonna test ingest SN quickly haha :D I just can't resist. I ate lots at dinner earlier and didn't take any of the recommended meds. Been staring at my SN for almost 2 hours now. I am so incredibly tempted. I'm not even sad at the moment. I...

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Headache was really bad. Felt like my forehead and neck was about to explode. Besides that pain only came as general muscle soreness and a bit of a tummy ache later during the night

oh wow it just happened, you poor thing :( im glad your okay - aw kinda scares me with the level of pain you experienced, thats awful

 

[Chemi]

oh wow it just happened, you poor thing :( im glad your okay - aw kinda scares me with the level of pain you experienced, thats awful

I did it without any medication to support me and the dose was low enough to not knock me out quick but also high enough to cause severe symptoms which is why i decided to abort.

Thank you <3

 

[peewee]

I did it without any medication to support me and the dose was low enough to not knock me out quick but also high enough to cause severe symptoms which is why i decided to abort.

Thank you <3

did the headache come instantly? do you think it would be s bad if you had taken the meds?

 

[Chemi]

did the headache come instantly? do you think it would be s bad if you had taken the meds?

Took not even 5 minutes for my head to start pulsating. Almost felt like as soon as SN makes contact with any part of my skin inside or outside my body, i could feel the effects starting.

It then slowly became worse. You can imagine it as a migraine style headache on the forehead. I think even simple pain meds would have helped drastically. Me being nervous for sure didnt help my heart to calm down either.

I think some benzos + normal pain meds and something against nausea would have helped with all my symptoms.

Mind you i took like a 1/10 of the usual dose so thinks might be totally different during a real attempt.

 

[ifihadnever]

yea im not sure because your not supposed to mix benzos and opiates, but im catching the bus anyway so idk? i think it causes respiritory depression...sorry your feeling such frustration x im hoping a combo of benzos and perhaps remembering my reasons to ctb will help overcome it, my sn is vaccum packed so once its open its open. im relieved and also worried i wont go through with it, or there will be alot of pain if i do. its unlikely though...are you going to try again?


oh wow i didnt realise you tried it, how much did you take? what was the pain like?
i have beta blockers so hopefully heart wont race

It's so hard isn't it. I didn't think it would be so difficult and maybe it isn't for some...there was just all these 'what ifs' in my mind. It's horrible as it's what I want for myself, I have all I need but can I do it?! I don't want to work myself up again and not manage. I think the 48 hour protocol isn't for me in that sense. I've been driving myself bonkers as want to try but feel I'm still a little emotionally battered from not being able to last week. I hope you manage to seek the peace you need. I totally understand your worries, they are logical.

 

[rozeske]

My soon keeps on moving further away but i still keep on hoping to put myself out of my misery soon. Good luck to you whatever you end up deciding.

 

[peewee]

It's so hard isn't it. I didn't think it would be so difficult and maybe it isn't for some...there was just all these 'what ifs' in my mind. It's horrible as it's what I want for myself, I have all I need but can I do it?! I don't want to work myself up again and not manage. I think the 48 hour protocol isn't for me in that sense. I've been driving myself bonkers as want to try but feel I'm still a little emotionally battered from not being able to last week. I hope you manage to seek the peace you need. I totally understand your worries, they are logical.

its so harrrrd, i wish i had a ctb partner, it might make it a bit easier, like just to have someone with me...thanks for validating me, its alot isnt it

 

[tiredape]

I'm glad you have everything you need. I also wondered about codeine myself but haven't heard it mentioned here so was unsure. I couldn't go ahead with mine when planned - a fear like I'd never felt before set it (but im a highly anxious person and had overthought the situation so think I caused myself a lot of problems), im still angry & upset and myself so will just need some more time. I hope you are able to go through with it if it is what you choose. It's a strange feeling isn't it. Must be a relief to have what you need now tho.

What I still have trouble understanding is why are antiemetics mentioned in the SN megathread as being rather expensive even than the SN itself.
I got mine(2 10mg tablets) for just 2 dollars worth here in Kenya,EA. It's metoclopramide by metcos and yes it is a dopamine antagonist. I was just wondering if I've got the wrong kind because it wasn't that expensive.

 

[woodlandcreature]

i hope you find peace, lovely </3