Venting I get restless if I set a CTB date

[cowboypants]

Like internally I feel so restless and depressed and I feel like I can live on a little longer when the date approaches. I keep procastinating it. Ironically it's not the only thing I procastinate. But I don't really understand it.

And I'm still at cross roads if I can do it at home (I'm living with my family) or do it outside and save their trauma a little bit at the least.

But doing it a hotel has many hurdles for me and i don't want to fail. I don't know why I cant stick to a date. Ugh

 

[kvorumese]

It could be your SI kicking in. There's no shame in it, it's completely natural. I cannot tell you how to combat it though, I have yet to experience it :p