Venting I fucking hate myself (I didn't buy the gun)

[undecidedfool]

Fuck me.
My plan was to buy a gun Friday morning before work, and I fucking pussied out. I fucking hate myself. I was so close, but noooo I had to go and tell someone because I can't hold myself to anything.
Fuck I hate myself so much.

Now after that I'm scared to try to buy one again. I got lucky I wasn't sent to the hospital or anything when I admitted it. If I do the same thing again I'll end up in a psych ward instead of 6 feet under, where I belong.

 

[cali22♡]

Talking to people about worries could be a good step in the right direction

Take care