Venting I fell asleep holding my SN

[issyishere]

My anxiety and paranoia of losing my mind over stress culminated last night. I gave up all my electronics willingly so I couldn't even listen to music to calm down. The only thing that helped was holding my SN...it gave me comfort knowing I could end it if it ever became too much. Anyone else relate to feeling like you're losing control and having a way to ctb calms you down?

 

[RedRed]

Oh deary, this speaks to me on so many levels! You're not alone. For me, my plan to ctb is kinda like...a safety net for me. If I don't reach my future plans right after I graduate, then I'll just kick the bucket. If ever something bad happened to me, it's fine. Totally fine cuz I'll be leaving soon anyway.

I'm the type of person who plans way ahead. Way, way ahead. I have plans A, B, C so on and so forth in case something goes wrong. So ctb is my last "plan" if ever all my other plans fail hahaha
If only I could hug you, dear stranger! I hope you'll rest easy knowing that you're not alone. Definitely not. <3

 

[mimiopo22]

Oh caro, questo mi parla a così tanti livelli! Non sei solo. Per me, il mio piano per ctb è un po 'come ... una rete di sicurezza per me. Se non raggiungo i miei piani futuri subito dopo la laurea, allora prenderò a calci il secchio. Se mai mi è successo qualcosa di brutto, va bene. Totalmente bene perché me ne andrò presto comunque.

Sono il tipo di persona che pianifica il futuro. Avanti, molto avanti. Ho piani A, B, C e così via, nel caso qualcosa vada storto. Quindi ctb è il mio ultimo "piano" se mai tutti i miei altri piani falliscono ahahah
Se solo potessi abbracciarti, caro sconosciuto! Spero che starai tranquillo sapendo che non sei solo. Assolutamente no. <3

li vuoi condividere?

 

[RedRed]

li vuoi condividere?

Oooh Italian? Does this mean "Do you want to share them?". According to google translate ahahah!

 

[mimiopo22]

Yes. I'm sorry but when I use google and not tor it translates the text and sends it in Italian rather than English

My anxiety and paranoia of losing my mind over stress culminated last night. I gave up all my electronics willingly so I couldn't even listen to music to calm down. The only thing that helped was holding my SN...it gave me comfort knowing I could end it if it ever became too much. Anyone else relate to feeling like you're losing control and having a way to ctb calms you down?

Please. If I text you in pm, will you tell me where you got sn?

 

[Deleted member 23586]

I do the exact same thing. I made a joke about how I needed an SN plushy.

 

[issyishere]

Yes. I'm sorry but when I use google and not tor it translates the text and sends it in Italian rather than English

Please. If I text you in pm, will you tell me where you got sn?

I'm sorry I'm from the usa and I don't think the seller is international. It hurts to see people like you getting screwed over because of stupid politicians. ):

 

[these_days9]

I've done this exact same thing when I was having a particularly rough time going to sleep. Sometimes it helps just imagining or fantasizing about dying, but being able to hold something physical really ups the comfort level. You're not alone <3

 

[justsad&done]

Absolutely relatable. Just knowing I have it eases my anxiety slightly and reminds me that I have a way out!

 

[Nymph]

I do the exact same thing. I made a joke about how I needed an SN plushy.

lol, SN body pillow. I need it

 

[Meditation guide]

Please. If I text you in pm, will you tell me where you got sn?

Jebus! Please search for it on the internet and stop asking everyone here, thank you.

 

[mimiopo22]

Jebus! Per favore cercalo su Internet e smetti di chiedere a tutti qui, grazie.

I have already searched, there is not a cabbage.

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

I have already searched, there is not a cabbage.

(Sorry, @issyishere, I'm losing control! )

 

[Deleted member 23586]

lol, SN body pillow. I need it
View attachment 54386

Omg.................*searches internet for more*